Laugh it off skip the pain
for there's nothing to gain
no more tears
no more fears
no more living in shame.
Don't be scared
no one cared
for you're only to blame
what's been caused
is your fault
only with added salt
it hurts more
to the core
than what you thought before.
We can't help
we don't know
you have nowhere to go.
What's been said
has been dead
only you let it spread.
Be surprised
you thought not
but you're letting it rot.
End it now
you know how
and we sit here and wait
to see the outcome of fate.
Close your eyes
realize
that your in this alone
you have friends
no dead ends
though you are so unknown.
We don't judge
we don't grudge
but we do demonstrate
you can't win
not again
just keep going your way.
Please don't stay
just today
so confused
so abused
yes you will feel that way
and one more
end this now
you know how
please don't make a delay.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Someone I'm not
I look at you and wonder what your doing in my life
and if you'll ever be my future loving wife.
But while were smoking cigarettes and drinking beer
I still don't understand what you're doing here.
I tell you that I love and your very hot
but that is just a lie because I'm someone I'm not.
and if you'll ever be my future loving wife.
But while were smoking cigarettes and drinking beer
I still don't understand what you're doing here.
I tell you that I love and your very hot
but that is just a lie because I'm someone I'm not.
Her best Friend.
I lay here on top of my bed thinking of a girl
when I think of her eyes it makes me want to hurl.
She looks at me and smiles, but I just want to gag
because I've used her up, like an old dirty rag.
She thinks that I love her, and we'll make it to the end
but what she doesn't know is I'm fucking her best friend.
when I think of her eyes it makes me want to hurl.
She looks at me and smiles, but I just want to gag
because I've used her up, like an old dirty rag.
She thinks that I love her, and we'll make it to the end
but what she doesn't know is I'm fucking her best friend.
Which is what it's about
Out in public we look perfect together
just like a movie couple that will last forever
though when were alone reality kicks in
and we fall to pieces all over again.
This happens everyday and it's lasted so long
and I feel so guilty because it's so wrong.
So what do I do, I take the easy way out
it's something called love, which is what it's about.
just like a movie couple that will last forever
though when were alone reality kicks in
and we fall to pieces all over again.
This happens everyday and it's lasted so long
and I feel so guilty because it's so wrong.
So what do I do, I take the easy way out
it's something called love, which is what it's about.
In a ditch
These feelings for you are strong and confusing
though you laugh at me and find it amusing.
You don't understand all I've been through
and I try to calmly explain it all to you.
But you turn away with your face in disgust
expecting me to give you full trust.
Well I won't do it, so fuck you bitch
I'll chop off your head, and throw it in a ditch.
though you laugh at me and find it amusing.
You don't understand all I've been through
and I try to calmly explain it all to you.
But you turn away with your face in disgust
expecting me to give you full trust.
Well I won't do it, so fuck you bitch
I'll chop off your head, and throw it in a ditch.
Living in a box, smoking dope.
My parents assume that I'll never learn
therefore responsibility is what I won't learn.
My parents don't trust me, they call me a liar
but my self esteem won't get much higher.
When I get older and live alone and broke
and my drivers licensed is revoked.
I'll soon realize that I have no hope
and end up living in a box smoking dope.
Thats what I think to myself day after day
but non of this matters anyway.
therefore responsibility is what I won't learn.
My parents don't trust me, they call me a liar
but my self esteem won't get much higher.
When I get older and live alone and broke
and my drivers licensed is revoked.
I'll soon realize that I have no hope
and end up living in a box smoking dope.
Thats what I think to myself day after day
but non of this matters anyway.
Never be shown
What the hell do you want me to do
I won't give up and say were through.
Though in reality it won't last much longer
and you'll be the one who comes out stronger
and I'll stay here feeling confused and alone
but all this I say will never be shown.
I won't give up and say were through.
Though in reality it won't last much longer
and you'll be the one who comes out stronger
and I'll stay here feeling confused and alone
but all this I say will never be shown.
When I think of you
When I think of you and all your silly lies
It brought me to the point, where I gouged out your eyes
Yes you yelled and yes you heard me laugh
when I tried to suffocate you while you were in the bath.
But not before I hit you and I threw you on the bed
and I bet you prayed to go that you were truly dead.
You tried to grab the phone but I grabbed you by the hair
and threw you against the wall, which I didn't know was there.
You yelled out loud my name with terror in your face
and I should have felt sorry, but that wasn't the case.
You then fell on the floor and I raped you in the ass
but not before I made you eat, shards of broken glass.
You asked me what was wrong, and I told you I was fine
and that you were still my lover and my beautiful sunshine.
You tried to run away but I took out my shotgun
and shot you in the leg, which made it hard to run.
You crawled into the closet, trying to catch your breath
but I shot you in the head, causing you your death.
I then took your limp body and stuffed it in a bag
and thought it'd be best, if I mailed it to your dad.
It brought me to the point, where I gouged out your eyes
Yes you yelled and yes you heard me laugh
when I tried to suffocate you while you were in the bath.
But not before I hit you and I threw you on the bed
and I bet you prayed to go that you were truly dead.
You tried to grab the phone but I grabbed you by the hair
and threw you against the wall, which I didn't know was there.
You yelled out loud my name with terror in your face
and I should have felt sorry, but that wasn't the case.
You then fell on the floor and I raped you in the ass
but not before I made you eat, shards of broken glass.
You asked me what was wrong, and I told you I was fine
and that you were still my lover and my beautiful sunshine.
You tried to run away but I took out my shotgun
and shot you in the leg, which made it hard to run.
You crawled into the closet, trying to catch your breath
but I shot you in the head, causing you your death.
I then took your limp body and stuffed it in a bag
and thought it'd be best, if I mailed it to your dad.
Game over
I call you every night
wanting to hear your voice
but you never answer
so you've left me no choice
so I'll end this now
and tell you tomorrow
that I'm moving on
and this game is over.
wanting to hear your voice
but you never answer
so you've left me no choice
so I'll end this now
and tell you tomorrow
that I'm moving on
and this game is over.
Too much
We have done too much and I can't breath
It gets to the point where I start to heave.
The food I eat makes my stomach ache
and sometimes I feel that my feelings are fake.
Though I know there real which causes me to cry
and most of the time I'm not too sure why.
It gets to the point where I start to heave.
The food I eat makes my stomach ache
and sometimes I feel that my feelings are fake.
Though I know there real which causes me to cry
and most of the time I'm not too sure why.
Why can't you see
I try so hard not to get frustrated
but your thinking is so complicated.
I don't have time to piece this out
and I can't stand listening to you shout.
Your not worth my time, why can't you see
that you have nothing to offer me.
but your thinking is so complicated.
I don't have time to piece this out
and I can't stand listening to you shout.
Your not worth my time, why can't you see
that you have nothing to offer me.
Circling around
You don't know me because I've changed
not for the best, but for something deranged.
To show you my confusion I let you know
that I actually have no place to go.
Into the darkness is where I'll be found
because my feelings are circling around.
not for the best, but for something deranged.
To show you my confusion I let you know
that I actually have no place to go.
Into the darkness is where I'll be found
because my feelings are circling around.
Beer
I go out drinking every night
always wanting to get in a fight.
I'm sick of my life, I just want to die
and the scary part is, I don't know why.
You won't help and no one cares
I even still have these horrible nightmares
that wake me up and I'm sweating in fear
but I solve the problem by having a beer.
always wanting to get in a fight.
I'm sick of my life, I just want to die
and the scary part is, I don't know why.
You won't help and no one cares
I even still have these horrible nightmares
that wake me up and I'm sweating in fear
but I solve the problem by having a beer.
Chose Instead
I stare at this wall, my face you can't see
and something or someone is looking at me.
These feelings I have just can't be defined
as I stare at this wall I slowly unwind.
I'm dressed very proper and my hairs styled nice
and to dress in elegance is a very high price.
The colors that surround me scream in my head
but this is my life that I have chose instead.
and something or someone is looking at me.
These feelings I have just can't be defined
as I stare at this wall I slowly unwind.
I'm dressed very proper and my hairs styled nice
and to dress in elegance is a very high price.
The colors that surround me scream in my head
but this is my life that I have chose instead.
Raw
Blood that runs from my fingertips
from love that seeps out through your lips
collide together and cause explosion
and sticks us together which creates emotion.
An emotion of love which is so pure and raw
but when the heart breaks it will take longer to thaw.
from love that seeps out through your lips
collide together and cause explosion
and sticks us together which creates emotion.
An emotion of love which is so pure and raw
but when the heart breaks it will take longer to thaw.
Disarray
A tear of loneliness that runs down my face
for someones love for me to embrace.
The tears run down and hit the floor
loneliness hurts me deep, right to the core.
Is it the way I act? Or the way I live life?
Or is it simply that I'm full of strife?
I try to live positive day after day
but all my feelings have turned disarray.
for someones love for me to embrace.
The tears run down and hit the floor
loneliness hurts me deep, right to the core.
Is it the way I act? Or the way I live life?
Or is it simply that I'm full of strife?
I try to live positive day after day
but all my feelings have turned disarray.
Overwhelming Lust
I stand at this ledge and look down at the water
and feel my blood boil and get hotter and hotter.
I think of my past and all my regrets
and all the smoke I've inhaled from cigarettes.
All the drinks that made me drunk with desire
just like a flame caused by a roaring fire.
My hands start trembling as I gasp for air
but I start to choke because it isn't there.
My feet start slipping and I think of my wife
and what she would think If I ended my life.
I close my eyes and I think of free will
and how my life is falling downhill.
I clench my fists and yell out loud
and think of my kids, wondering if they'd be proud.
Proud that there father ended life in depression
all because he had too much anger and aggression.
I smell the salty air and it brings me to tears
and the chilled air brings frost to my ears.
The tears run down and fall down below
and I think to myself that I have nowhere to go.
I smile at the fact that my wife will move on
but by now the suns setting and it's turning dawn.
The sweat from my pores glisten in the sun
but this is one choice that can't be undone.
I look up toward the clouds as a bird passes by
and reach out to the sun and jump high in the sky.
I feel the sensation of overwhelming lust
and there in the ocean I turn to dust.
and feel my blood boil and get hotter and hotter.
I think of my past and all my regrets
and all the smoke I've inhaled from cigarettes.
All the drinks that made me drunk with desire
just like a flame caused by a roaring fire.
My hands start trembling as I gasp for air
but I start to choke because it isn't there.
My feet start slipping and I think of my wife
and what she would think If I ended my life.
I close my eyes and I think of free will
and how my life is falling downhill.
I clench my fists and yell out loud
and think of my kids, wondering if they'd be proud.
Proud that there father ended life in depression
all because he had too much anger and aggression.
I smell the salty air and it brings me to tears
and the chilled air brings frost to my ears.
The tears run down and fall down below
and I think to myself that I have nowhere to go.
I smile at the fact that my wife will move on
but by now the suns setting and it's turning dawn.
The sweat from my pores glisten in the sun
but this is one choice that can't be undone.
I look up toward the clouds as a bird passes by
and reach out to the sun and jump high in the sky.
I feel the sensation of overwhelming lust
and there in the ocean I turn to dust.
Airplane
The plane I'm on crashes to the ground
I open my eyes and my heart starts to pound.
The children I see sprawled across the floor
are all cut open and splattered with gore.
My hear beats fast, and I can't take it anymore.
I cry for help but nothing comes out
I look for anyone alive and I start to shout.
"IS ANYONE ALIVE" I yell
but no one is moving as far as I can tell.
I look outside and see lots of trees
The warmth from the sun is about 70 degrees.
I look for a cell on the airplane
but there is none and it drives me insane.
I eat the small children to keep me well fed
and the dead corpses provide me a comfortable bed.
Its a jungle out there and I'm full of strife
though I wonder how I would end my life.
I look around to see if i could end this sorrow
but I fall asleep not waking up till tomorrow.
I wake up and hear voices all around
but there is nothing moving that I have found.
It's coming from the jungle and I follow the noise
then I fall in a pit full of dead girls and boys.
I see the cannibals up above me start to scream
that's when I wish this was all a dream.
They stone me to death and there I lay
with the girls and boys starting to rot and decay.
I open my eyes and my heart starts to pound.
The children I see sprawled across the floor
are all cut open and splattered with gore.
My hear beats fast, and I can't take it anymore.
I cry for help but nothing comes out
I look for anyone alive and I start to shout.
"IS ANYONE ALIVE" I yell
but no one is moving as far as I can tell.
I look outside and see lots of trees
The warmth from the sun is about 70 degrees.
I look for a cell on the airplane
but there is none and it drives me insane.
I eat the small children to keep me well fed
and the dead corpses provide me a comfortable bed.
Its a jungle out there and I'm full of strife
though I wonder how I would end my life.
I look around to see if i could end this sorrow
but I fall asleep not waking up till tomorrow.
I wake up and hear voices all around
but there is nothing moving that I have found.
It's coming from the jungle and I follow the noise
then I fall in a pit full of dead girls and boys.
I see the cannibals up above me start to scream
that's when I wish this was all a dream.
They stone me to death and there I lay
with the girls and boys starting to rot and decay.
My Shrink
There are no friends to help when I'm in need
all I have is hard liquor and ten bowls of weed.
This is my life it's pathetic and wrong
I have no hope, and nowhere to belong.
I was made to believe that I wasn't wanted
I've lived in that way, forever haunted.
I can't get my head straight since I take so much drugs
and party at raves, while I get lots of hugs.
That's my life and I don't care what you think
the only person who really cares is my shrink.
all I have is hard liquor and ten bowls of weed.
This is my life it's pathetic and wrong
I have no hope, and nowhere to belong.
I was made to believe that I wasn't wanted
I've lived in that way, forever haunted.
I can't get my head straight since I take so much drugs
and party at raves, while I get lots of hugs.
That's my life and I don't care what you think
the only person who really cares is my shrink.
Cheating
I've got some problems I'd like to confess
It'll get out my anger and all of my stress.
There was a woman I loved, but was made of lies
and I couldn't imagine putting my penis in her thighs.
She wasn't serious, she wanted to have fun
but I went further, now I'm filling up gun.
It's been a relationship full of lies for three years
and this love we have is nothing as it appears.
With cops at the door, and pictures thrown across the floor
I would have killed her that mother fucking whore.
But momma taught me that I shouldn't hit a girl
though I don't have any way to let my anger unfurl.
So when I put this 40 to her chin
She knew there was no way could possibly win.
I pulled back the trigger while I clenched my eyes
but I fucking missed, which was probably wise.
Now I lay on the floor my heart isn't beating
but what I can say? That's what I get for cheating.
It'll get out my anger and all of my stress.
There was a woman I loved, but was made of lies
and I couldn't imagine putting my penis in her thighs.
She wasn't serious, she wanted to have fun
but I went further, now I'm filling up gun.
It's been a relationship full of lies for three years
and this love we have is nothing as it appears.
With cops at the door, and pictures thrown across the floor
I would have killed her that mother fucking whore.
But momma taught me that I shouldn't hit a girl
though I don't have any way to let my anger unfurl.
So when I put this 40 to her chin
She knew there was no way could possibly win.
I pulled back the trigger while I clenched my eyes
but I fucking missed, which was probably wise.
Now I lay on the floor my heart isn't beating
but what I can say? That's what I get for cheating.
Signed pact
I can't grab a balance to regain control
ad this is all that I want you know.
Tonight oh my love, I tighten the noose
and pray to God that it won't come loose.
This life that I'm living simply isn't real
A signed pact to the devil, will make it a deal.
ad this is all that I want you know.
Tonight oh my love, I tighten the noose
and pray to God that it won't come loose.
This life that I'm living simply isn't real
A signed pact to the devil, will make it a deal.
You're always right
Just because your always right
doesn't mean we need to fight.
You say I'm wrong which isn't true
oh but only if you knew.
I cannot help you fight your war
because you aren't worth it anymore.
doesn't mean we need to fight.
You say I'm wrong which isn't true
oh but only if you knew.
I cannot help you fight your war
because you aren't worth it anymore.
My luck
All my luck ran down the drain
now I'm driving toward this oncoming train.
I applied the brakes a bit to late
and all the pain I let substrate.
Into the darkness is where I am thrown
for what I have reaped is what I have sown.
now I'm driving toward this oncoming train.
I applied the brakes a bit to late
and all the pain I let substrate.
Into the darkness is where I am thrown
for what I have reaped is what I have sown.
Over a year
It's been over a year, how do I feel?
Are my feelings honestly real?
Am I too afraid to actually move on
or is my will honestly too strong?
To make things work anymore is tough
but I know in the future it will only get rough.
So here I am now feeling lots and impaired
wishing that someone had truly cared.
Are my feelings honestly real?
Am I too afraid to actually move on
or is my will honestly too strong?
To make things work anymore is tough
but I know in the future it will only get rough.
So here I am now feeling lots and impaired
wishing that someone had truly cared.
Such sudden disgrace.
Let my pain subside more slowly
because I planned this out so poorly.
I fell for her with all her might
but all we did was ever fight.
All my friends said please don't love her
thought I wasn't all too sure.
So I took a chance and fell on my face
which then caused me such sudden disgrace.
because I planned this out so poorly.
I fell for her with all her might
but all we did was ever fight.
All my friends said please don't love her
thought I wasn't all too sure.
So I took a chance and fell on my face
which then caused me such sudden disgrace.
So long...So long..
I hear your words, and I know it's a lie
when I think of you, I start to cry.
You hurt me deep, right to the core
I won't allow your sweet words to effect me anymore.
You got rid of me a couple weeks in advance
which didn't leave me with much of a chance.
But that it's over and I'm moving on
We'll depart here, So long...So long..
when I think of you, I start to cry.
You hurt me deep, right to the core
I won't allow your sweet words to effect me anymore.
You got rid of me a couple weeks in advance
which didn't leave me with much of a chance.
But that it's over and I'm moving on
We'll depart here, So long...So long..
Someone who cared
I sit here at school confused and quite scared
wishing I had someone who truly cared.
Who'd be there for me when I'm feeling low
when I'm lost and confused with nowhere to go.
The feelings become strong and I show it through expression
whether it's aggravation, jealousy, or simply depression.
Here on paper is where I write my true feeling
wishing my skin would actually start peeling.
It would all fall off and expose whats inside
but instead I'm wrapped up in it willing to hide.
wishing I had someone who truly cared.
Who'd be there for me when I'm feeling low
when I'm lost and confused with nowhere to go.
The feelings become strong and I show it through expression
whether it's aggravation, jealousy, or simply depression.
Here on paper is where I write my true feeling
wishing my skin would actually start peeling.
It would all fall off and expose whats inside
but instead I'm wrapped up in it willing to hide.
Smile
Mixed emotions play with my mind
they soon get tangles and intertwined.
My head gets heavy and full of confusion
and sometimes I feel that life's an illusion.
It plays tricks in my head, and pulls on my soul
it eats me away till I'm no longer whole.
I try to find something to relieve my stress
but my mind is whirling and in complete mess.
No hope for the future and nowhere to go
Just a smile to put on, and no one will know.
they soon get tangles and intertwined.
My head gets heavy and full of confusion
and sometimes I feel that life's an illusion.
It plays tricks in my head, and pulls on my soul
it eats me away till I'm no longer whole.
I try to find something to relieve my stress
but my mind is whirling and in complete mess.
No hope for the future and nowhere to go
Just a smile to put on, and no one will know.
Confidence
A little confident, A little insecure
leads me to many problems of that I'm sure.
It leads me to doubt and leads me lie
leaving another heartbroken which now I know why.
It wasn't the other that I couldn't trust
it was my security that started to rust.
The rust chipped away and now I'm scared
with my self esteem gone, my heart is teared.
leads me to many problems of that I'm sure.
It leads me to doubt and leads me lie
leaving another heartbroken which now I know why.
It wasn't the other that I couldn't trust
it was my security that started to rust.
The rust chipped away and now I'm scared
with my self esteem gone, my heart is teared.
Another Heart Ache
I've become so confused, in so many ways
and this life that I live is just like a maze.
Every corner I turn is another dead end
my feelings for you are only pretend.
Till i get out of this maze and figure it out
I'll be living happily following the same route.
That leads to a corner which is another mistake
which usually ends up as another heart ache.
and this life that I live is just like a maze.
Every corner I turn is another dead end
my feelings for you are only pretend.
Till i get out of this maze and figure it out
I'll be living happily following the same route.
That leads to a corner which is another mistake
which usually ends up as another heart ache.
A simple phone call
All I wanted simple phone call
but sometimes I think you don't love me at all.
You hate my annoyance and the way I live life
so I'll end this tonight with the a stab of the knife.
Right in my heart is where it will stick
which will allow you to go out and suck dick.
Since I'm now gone and our relationships no more
you'll go through the town being called a whore.
but sometimes I think you don't love me at all.
You hate my annoyance and the way I live life
so I'll end this tonight with the a stab of the knife.
Right in my heart is where it will stick
which will allow you to go out and suck dick.
Since I'm now gone and our relationships no more
you'll go through the town being called a whore.
I smoke through a bong
Is it something I did, or something I said
I contemplate these questions while I lay in bed.
You left me for someone who was much better then me
but you were the one who I thought could see.
Who could see my true feelings, my feelings for you
I thought you were someone who I truly knew.
But it was a mistake and I was totally wrong
So leave me now while I smoke my through a bong.
I contemplate these questions while I lay in bed.
You left me for someone who was much better then me
but you were the one who I thought could see.
Who could see my true feelings, my feelings for you
I thought you were someone who I truly knew.
But it was a mistake and I was totally wrong
So leave me now while I smoke my through a bong.
They strongly reject
My parents tell me they don't want perfection
but living with them, I'm just an infection.
I try to act like I'm strong and smart
but I simply don't know where I should start.
Should I start with my attitude or my bad grades?
When I contemplate it my self esteem fades.
I can't be the child that they would expect
I can only be myself which they strongly reject.
but living with them, I'm just an infection.
I try to act like I'm strong and smart
but I simply don't know where I should start.
Should I start with my attitude or my bad grades?
When I contemplate it my self esteem fades.
I can't be the child that they would expect
I can only be myself which they strongly reject.
A gun to your head
I get out of may to please your ass
but you won't do it for me, and I won't let it pass.
A gun to your head or a knife to your throat
or maybe I'll tie you to the end of a boat.
I'll drive it away while it's tied to you neck
I never wanted our love to end in a wreck.
You've left me no choice but take life away
so I'll leave you in gods hands and go home and pray.
but you won't do it for me, and I won't let it pass.
A gun to your head or a knife to your throat
or maybe I'll tie you to the end of a boat.
I'll drive it away while it's tied to you neck
I never wanted our love to end in a wreck.
You've left me no choice but take life away
so I'll leave you in gods hands and go home and pray.
All the things
All the things growing up that I had to see
is nothing that my parents could ever guarantee.
They promised me this, they promised me that
and I tired to help that by not becoming a brat.
I was good and stayed on my best behavior
I believed that my parents were my savior.
But they split up and went there ways
and now I barley remember the good ol' days.
is nothing that my parents could ever guarantee.
They promised me this, they promised me that
and I tired to help that by not becoming a brat.
I was good and stayed on my best behavior
I believed that my parents were my savior.
But they split up and went there ways
and now I barley remember the good ol' days.
To The Reader
These poems I write just don't make sense
there useless and half of them offense.
No one likes them, there sick and depressing
though some of you might consider it a blessing.
I write these poems so people can relate
and maybe help someone before it's too late.
there useless and half of them offense.
No one likes them, there sick and depressing
though some of you might consider it a blessing.
I write these poems so people can relate
and maybe help someone before it's too late.
The Rich
Sometimes I cut my wrists because I'm numb
my friends don't understand why and call me dumb.
There rich and spoiled with no problems at all
while I splatter my blood up and down the wall.
They laugh at me because I'm not rich
but at least I'm not some stuck up bitch.
Sure I've got problems that I can't control
but I won't walk around acting like an asshole.
my friends don't understand why and call me dumb.
There rich and spoiled with no problems at all
while I splatter my blood up and down the wall.
They laugh at me because I'm not rich
but at least I'm not some stuck up bitch.
Sure I've got problems that I can't control
but I won't walk around acting like an asshole.
My mother
My loathed mother crying in shame
for she's the only one to blame.
All of her mistakes and all of her sins
and all of her losses since she had no wins.
Having no friends and nowhere to go
she should be living in hell, 6 feet below.
A mother so crooked and fake beyond reason
living with her was like an act of treason.
I come straight out with tears in my eyes
because she was the one who was made of lies.
Who taught me that life was so black and white
and left me in darkness where I couldn't see light.
For many years I've lived in sweet sorrow
wondering if there would be a tomorrow.
Afraid of the truth since she hid it so well
because I was the one who could never tell.
So if my mom reads this all the way through
I want you to know that the joke is on you.
for she's the only one to blame.
All of her mistakes and all of her sins
and all of her losses since she had no wins.
Having no friends and nowhere to go
she should be living in hell, 6 feet below.
A mother so crooked and fake beyond reason
living with her was like an act of treason.
I come straight out with tears in my eyes
because she was the one who was made of lies.
Who taught me that life was so black and white
and left me in darkness where I couldn't see light.
For many years I've lived in sweet sorrow
wondering if there would be a tomorrow.
Afraid of the truth since she hid it so well
because I was the one who could never tell.
So if my mom reads this all the way through
I want you to know that the joke is on you.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I hurt you,
but you left me all alone
I'm sorry that I lied to you,
but your heart was made of stone.
I thought you were the one,
who meant to me the most.
But you were just the cancer,
and I was just the host.
For what I've done,
You have called such a sin.
Everything you've done
will never happen again.
In any case the time to move on is now
and again I will make this one vow.
To end this disgression of happiness through hate
even if my hearts beats at an uneven rate.
but you left me all alone
I'm sorry that I lied to you,
but your heart was made of stone.
I thought you were the one,
who meant to me the most.
But you were just the cancer,
and I was just the host.
For what I've done,
You have called such a sin.
Everything you've done
will never happen again.
In any case the time to move on is now
and again I will make this one vow.
To end this disgression of happiness through hate
even if my hearts beats at an uneven rate.
"Love"
I think of relationships and how there confusing
I think of the word "love" and find it amusing.
I think of our relationship and how it's a lie
though I keen it going now knowing why.
I know you don't love me like you say you do
I learned this last month and it's nothing new.
I keep you lies so you can stay
and this habit continues day after day.
I think of the word "love" and find it amusing.
I think of our relationship and how it's a lie
though I keen it going now knowing why.
I know you don't love me like you say you do
I learned this last month and it's nothing new.
I keep you lies so you can stay
and this habit continues day after day.
Gagged
I look outside my window and watch the rain
while here in my basement is where I remain.
I'm locked and chained because my parents are mad
I'm bound and can't breath because I'm gagged.
My parents are yelling and leave me for dead
my dad then comes in and beats me over the head.
My mom starts yelling and I taste the mud
and now my face is sore and covered with blood.
As the hate toward my parents flare
death is where I can only stare.
while here in my basement is where I remain.
I'm locked and chained because my parents are mad
I'm bound and can't breath because I'm gagged.
My parents are yelling and leave me for dead
my dad then comes in and beats me over the head.
My mom starts yelling and I taste the mud
and now my face is sore and covered with blood.
As the hate toward my parents flare
death is where I can only stare.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
My mind is foggy
It feels as if I've been pushed off a cliff
my legs aren't moving and I've become stiff.
My mind is foggy and I can't see at all
and I realize that I'm starting to fall.
My life flashes before my eyes
and this move I made wasn't too wise.
My kids and wife I've left alone
and I wish I could have seen them grown.
my legs aren't moving and I've become stiff.
My mind is foggy and I can't see at all
and I realize that I'm starting to fall.
My life flashes before my eyes
and this move I made wasn't too wise.
My kids and wife I've left alone
and I wish I could have seen them grown.
Tallest ledge
This is the last time I will ever talk to you
as I remove your name off of my tattoo.
You hurt me deep and it left a scar
so I take a drive in my new car.
I see a bridge and there's a sign
but what the hell, I've crossed the line.
I drive faster seeing the edge
as my car drives off the tallest ledge.
as I remove your name off of my tattoo.
You hurt me deep and it left a scar
so I take a drive in my new car.
I see a bridge and there's a sign
but what the hell, I've crossed the line.
I drive faster seeing the edge
as my car drives off the tallest ledge.
Us Teens
Us teens are confused with no one to trust
and the way parents treat us are all unjust.
Our parents want us to grow up as adults
but we can't always be there perfect results.
We have problems which parents don't get
they don't understand that it's hard to commit.
We need to follow, we need an example
but all of our parents can't show us a sample.
We express our emotions through a rhyme
while cutting our veins, slowly running out of time
and the way parents treat us are all unjust.
Our parents want us to grow up as adults
but we can't always be there perfect results.
We have problems which parents don't get
they don't understand that it's hard to commit.
We need to follow, we need an example
but all of our parents can't show us a sample.
We express our emotions through a rhyme
while cutting our veins, slowly running out of time
Tired
I'm tired of showing love and getting none back
I'm tired of showing hate and getting attacked.
I hate being nice and I hate being mean
but does anyone care? I'm only a teen.
I have no feelings, I'm stubborn as hell
Why yes I smoke pot, Can't you tell?
These problems consume me and I loose control
It eats at my life and tears away at my soul.
I'm tired of showing hate and getting attacked.
I hate being nice and I hate being mean
but does anyone care? I'm only a teen.
I have no feelings, I'm stubborn as hell
Why yes I smoke pot, Can't you tell?
These problems consume me and I loose control
It eats at my life and tears away at my soul.
For the kids
Our parents want us to be just like them
but if we are different then they condemn.
We can't be perfect which parents don't get
all the pieces we put together simply don't fit.
They hate the idea that we have changed
too think that we have become deranged.
They don't know what it's like to be confused
which is all the kids that get brutally abused.
They hate the idea that we smoke and drink
but it's hard sometimes and we don't think.
Though parents think we know who to trust
even though they are full of disgust.
Parents ruin our lives and tell us we fail
which is why most kids wind up in jail.
but if we are different then they condemn.
We can't be perfect which parents don't get
all the pieces we put together simply don't fit.
They hate the idea that we have changed
too think that we have become deranged.
They don't know what it's like to be confused
which is all the kids that get brutally abused.
They hate the idea that we smoke and drink
but it's hard sometimes and we don't think.
Though parents think we know who to trust
even though they are full of disgust.
Parents ruin our lives and tell us we fail
which is why most kids wind up in jail.
See my death
I'm only pretty sure, I can't handle anymore
As I slam my face against the door.
This is the end of all of my fears
as I start to wipe all of my tears.
I head outside and catch my breath
and look to the sky and see my death.
I drive to bridge and look at the water
when I realize I'm leaving my only daughter.
I jump into the sea and shut my eyes
the death I receive is such a sensationalize.
As I slam my face against the door.
This is the end of all of my fears
as I start to wipe all of my tears.
I head outside and catch my breath
and look to the sky and see my death.
I drive to bridge and look at the water
when I realize I'm leaving my only daughter.
I jump into the sea and shut my eyes
the death I receive is such a sensationalize.
Dear Dad
The feelings of terror that consume my brain
have left me in horror and now I'm insane.
Every cut that I make, every heart that I break
is nothing compared to the lies that cause ache.
You promised me a life with a family of four
It's now its split to two and there is no more.
You may not finish this all the way through
but these are the things that I thought you knew.
You left me with a mom who was crazy as hell
and you wonder why I start to rebel.
You say I should grow up and grab life by the horns
but I can't grow up when I'm covered in thorns.
I can't control my feelings and actions all the time
but I try to help that by making a rhyme.
While your having fun enjoying the pleasures of life
I sit in bed threatening my wrists with a knife.
You say I have a life that shouldn't be wasted
but you don't understand all the tears that I've tasted.
The tears of pain that roll down my face
and you call me a fucking disgrace.
You've never had it hard because you were a man
with a thought out future and a laid out plan.
Living in misery is so hard to tell
it drives me into the mouth of hell.
I've bent over backward to survive this pain
I hope you understand all I've had to explain.
For everything that has been said
Just be happy I'm not on the floor dead.
have left me in horror and now I'm insane.
Every cut that I make, every heart that I break
is nothing compared to the lies that cause ache.
You promised me a life with a family of four
It's now its split to two and there is no more.
You may not finish this all the way through
but these are the things that I thought you knew.
You left me with a mom who was crazy as hell
and you wonder why I start to rebel.
You say I should grow up and grab life by the horns
but I can't grow up when I'm covered in thorns.
I can't control my feelings and actions all the time
but I try to help that by making a rhyme.
While your having fun enjoying the pleasures of life
I sit in bed threatening my wrists with a knife.
You say I have a life that shouldn't be wasted
but you don't understand all the tears that I've tasted.
The tears of pain that roll down my face
and you call me a fucking disgrace.
You've never had it hard because you were a man
with a thought out future and a laid out plan.
Living in misery is so hard to tell
it drives me into the mouth of hell.
I've bent over backward to survive this pain
I hope you understand all I've had to explain.
For everything that has been said
Just be happy I'm not on the floor dead.
A swim
We used to laugh as we swam in the sea
yes, we were in love and full of glee.
Life was worthwhile and we never cried
until that one time you got sucked in the tide.
I tried to save you, I held on so tight
but you let go and my face turned white.
I started to cry and watched you drown
and now you are gone and haven't been found.
yes, we were in love and full of glee.
Life was worthwhile and we never cried
until that one time you got sucked in the tide.
I tried to save you, I held on so tight
but you let go and my face turned white.
I started to cry and watched you drown
and now you are gone and haven't been found.
Face death
I need to face death without getting scared
I have no friends and won't be scared.
I want something to get me through this hell
but I have no friends to tell me farewell.
I want to end my life with this simple pull
but the gun that I'm holding isn't full.
I'm loosing my mind slowly going insane
and death is what I need to obtain.
I can't face my problems I'm too afraid
so I end this now with the stab of a blade.
I have no friends and won't be scared.
I want something to get me through this hell
but I have no friends to tell me farewell.
I want to end my life with this simple pull
but the gun that I'm holding isn't full.
I'm loosing my mind slowly going insane
and death is what I need to obtain.
I can't face my problems I'm too afraid
so I end this now with the stab of a blade.
Hundreds of laughs
You were my savior and your heart was my sword
But you never knew that I was ignored.
I look down on you and smile at your mistakes
though it's only a cover up from all my heartaches.
You tried to destroy me and leave me for dead
but it turned around, and you died instead.
Your no longer in my heart, it's in half
and I'll cover it up with hundreds of laughs.
But you never knew that I was ignored.
I look down on you and smile at your mistakes
though it's only a cover up from all my heartaches.
You tried to destroy me and leave me for dead
but it turned around, and you died instead.
Your no longer in my heart, it's in half
and I'll cover it up with hundreds of laughs.
I'm Alive
Some days I sit outside and watch the rain
while I glance at the scars following the vain.
All my problems are driving me crazy
and the answers to my problems are hazy.
If i could write poems there would be no scars
if I didn't loose control, I could look at the stars.
That ring me the love I need to survive
but I won't complain because at least I'm alive.
while I glance at the scars following the vain.
All my problems are driving me crazy
and the answers to my problems are hazy.
If i could write poems there would be no scars
if I didn't loose control, I could look at the stars.
That ring me the love I need to survive
but I won't complain because at least I'm alive.
Love
The taste of love is something so sour
it's supreme overall and has full power.
It controls the heart and brings us to tears
sometimes it's different from what it appears.
Love's broken hearts and sent people to death
but what do I know, since I only use meth.
it's supreme overall and has full power.
It controls the heart and brings us to tears
sometimes it's different from what it appears.
Love's broken hearts and sent people to death
but what do I know, since I only use meth.
It's over
Our relationship is over and everything is done
just be glad I took the bullets out of the gun.
It saved your life, and our daughters too
but the least you could do is tell me "Thank you".
You think I'm crazy have no heart
that's only because you tore it apart.
just be glad I took the bullets out of the gun.
It saved your life, and our daughters too
but the least you could do is tell me "Thank you".
You think I'm crazy have no heart
that's only because you tore it apart.
Monster
I've created a monster, the monster is me.
A monster that everyone hates to see.
This monster has issues, issues of hate
the monster I tried so hard not to create.
It was created the night my heart was broke
it came from inside and I started to choke.
Now I live with this monster forever and ever.
A monster that everyone hates to see.
This monster has issues, issues of hate
the monster I tried so hard not to create.
It was created the night my heart was broke
it came from inside and I started to choke.
Now I live with this monster forever and ever.
Whack
It happens every time at midnight.
My body turns cold, my mind starts to blight.
I loose control and can't grasp a feeling
while blood squirts all over toward the ceiling.
My parents promise me it will get better
but they don't know about the scars under the sweater.
They think I'm fine with no problems at all
but it's my head that I beat against the wall.
I'll run away and never come back
because where I live turns my mind to whack.
My body turns cold, my mind starts to blight.
I loose control and can't grasp a feeling
while blood squirts all over toward the ceiling.
My parents promise me it will get better
but they don't know about the scars under the sweater.
They think I'm fine with no problems at all
but it's my head that I beat against the wall.
I'll run away and never come back
because where I live turns my mind to whack.
Live without
Everything I stood for turned back in my face
and humiliated me and caused me disgrace.
I gave you my love and I gave you my heart
but that's what makes love relationships fall apart.
I gave up on you the night you died
it hurt me deep, and yes I cried.
You died in my heart and I can't get you out
and you are the one I have to live without.
and humiliated me and caused me disgrace.
I gave you my love and I gave you my heart
but that's what makes love relationships fall apart.
I gave up on you the night you died
it hurt me deep, and yes I cried.
You died in my heart and I can't get you out
and you are the one I have to live without.
Called my cell
You got drunk and called my cell
telling me that all is well.
Why do you lie, day and night.
Am I blind? With no eyesight?
Whatever your excuses are
cannot fool me anymore.
I gave you chances, more then one
but you've ran out and now there is none.
I don't want to talk to you again
you don't cause love, only pain.
telling me that all is well.
Why do you lie, day and night.
Am I blind? With no eyesight?
Whatever your excuses are
cannot fool me anymore.
I gave you chances, more then one
but you've ran out and now there is none.
I don't want to talk to you again
you don't cause love, only pain.
Affair
Feelings leak out like a leak in a pipe
Now it's my turn, my turn to gripe.
But before I do I have something to say
that I never feel in love with you anyway.
From the start you were seeing other men
it happened over and over and over again.
The guys would come by when I wasn't there
but to put it simply, you were having an affair.
Complicate the matters as much as you want
though the feelings will come back and start to haunt.
When it happens don't come to me crying
because I gave up on seriously trying.
Now it's my turn, my turn to gripe.
But before I do I have something to say
that I never feel in love with you anyway.
From the start you were seeing other men
it happened over and over and over again.
The guys would come by when I wasn't there
but to put it simply, you were having an affair.
Complicate the matters as much as you want
though the feelings will come back and start to haunt.
When it happens don't come to me crying
because I gave up on seriously trying.
You cannot win
How does it feel to leave the past
and into the future it comes so fast.
You have no control and you start to fall
and pretty soon you hit the wall.
Your life so empty and pointless too
your brain will be smashed into a stew.
Ate by the children and drunk from the men
in the battle of life, you cannot win.
and into the future it comes so fast.
You have no control and you start to fall
and pretty soon you hit the wall.
Your life so empty and pointless too
your brain will be smashed into a stew.
Ate by the children and drunk from the men
in the battle of life, you cannot win.
Relationship
In my hands is where you rest
when I look at you I get depressed.
Your so dark and cold, never glad
it makes me very, very sad.
I look to the sky and see the clouds
I look to the street and see the crowds.
You look at me and ask me what's wrong
I tell you I don't know where I belong.
You'll never understand for you are confused
and whatever I say, I'll just be accused.
So I keep my mouth shut and never speak
maybe for a day or even a week.
when I look at you I get depressed.
Your so dark and cold, never glad
it makes me very, very sad.
I look to the sky and see the clouds
I look to the street and see the crowds.
You look at me and ask me what's wrong
I tell you I don't know where I belong.
You'll never understand for you are confused
and whatever I say, I'll just be accused.
So I keep my mouth shut and never speak
maybe for a day or even a week.
New Shirt
An open road leads me to your lips
but on the way I take a nasty trip.
I fall on my face and you laugh at me
my face is wet and covered with pee.
Though sure enough you walk away
and now my heart has turned cold and gray.
My blood cold and eyes bloodshot
my stomach now twisted into a knot.
I stumble up and wipe off the dirt
but it's already stained onto my new shirt.
but on the way I take a nasty trip.
I fall on my face and you laugh at me
my face is wet and covered with pee.
Though sure enough you walk away
and now my heart has turned cold and gray.
My blood cold and eyes bloodshot
my stomach now twisted into a knot.
I stumble up and wipe off the dirt
but it's already stained onto my new shirt.
My friend and I
Look at the parents screaming and yelling.
For as me and you we are rebelling.
Getting drunk and getting stoned
the cops have just now telephoned.
Our parents answer and to our surprise
those damn cops have fell for our lies.
Yes our lives our at stake day and night
but we laugh away and drink whats right.
It gets us though the day peaceful and sound
cops always in search and in abound.
One of these days we are going to get caught
and way of living will be distraught.
But who the hell cares we've lived life to the max
and maybe in jail is where we can relax.
Clear our heads and learn our mistakes
and never again cause anyone heartache.
Though in this society no one cares
and if your different then everyone stares.
But for now we are living with nothing to do
so lets get drunk and get a tattoo.
IF the parents found out, what could they do?
Nothing for doing something crazy isn't new.
Even though your eight, and I'm only nine
lets get drunk tonight drinking only wine!
For as me and you we are rebelling.
Getting drunk and getting stoned
the cops have just now telephoned.
Our parents answer and to our surprise
those damn cops have fell for our lies.
Yes our lives our at stake day and night
but we laugh away and drink whats right.
It gets us though the day peaceful and sound
cops always in search and in abound.
One of these days we are going to get caught
and way of living will be distraught.
But who the hell cares we've lived life to the max
and maybe in jail is where we can relax.
Clear our heads and learn our mistakes
and never again cause anyone heartache.
Though in this society no one cares
and if your different then everyone stares.
But for now we are living with nothing to do
so lets get drunk and get a tattoo.
IF the parents found out, what could they do?
Nothing for doing something crazy isn't new.
Even though your eight, and I'm only nine
lets get drunk tonight drinking only wine!
Just begun
Lets break the tension we hold together
its been so strong, just like leather.
Your sick of me, and I'm sick of you
and our problems we create takes two.
I lie at you, you like back at me
we are in such denial that it's hard to see.
We won't know what to do until it's done
but I fear our problems have just begun..
its been so strong, just like leather.
Your sick of me, and I'm sick of you
and our problems we create takes two.
I lie at you, you like back at me
we are in such denial that it's hard to see.
We won't know what to do until it's done
but I fear our problems have just begun..
Memory
The numbness I feel is more than a dream
it's something so real that I start to scream.
Where do I start and where do I end?
This life we live is a lot to comprehend.
I'm sick of confusion please let this stop
and with this knife I hold, I let it drop.
I sit in the shower and slowly unwind
and leave all the past in a memory behind.
it's something so real that I start to scream.
Where do I start and where do I end?
This life we live is a lot to comprehend.
I'm sick of confusion please let this stop
and with this knife I hold, I let it drop.
I sit in the shower and slowly unwind
and leave all the past in a memory behind.
War
Moving through the underbrush
very silently in one big hush.
The soldier falls into the bloody mush
he smells the dirt and all the sweat
the air he breaths is very wet.
The fog is thick and his head his heavy
he wonders why he even got levy.
He hears gun fire and slowly ducks
realizing that war just sucks.
very silently in one big hush.
The soldier falls into the bloody mush
he smells the dirt and all the sweat
the air he breaths is very wet.
The fog is thick and his head his heavy
he wonders why he even got levy.
He hears gun fire and slowly ducks
realizing that war just sucks.
You Love, You Trust
I gave you love and showed you trust
but you left me in such disgust.
You laughed at me and mocked in my face
and thought my heart could be replaced.
But when you saw my beat up head
I bet you were surprised that I was dead.
but you left me in such disgust.
You laughed at me and mocked in my face
and thought my heart could be replaced.
But when you saw my beat up head
I bet you were surprised that I was dead.
What I portray
Once there was a dog who got hit by a truck
and as you know we all run out of luck.
Running down the street staring at the dog
I saw him stand up and disappear into the fog.
He revived from the dead and ran away
although this is insanity which is what I portray.
and as you know we all run out of luck.
Running down the street staring at the dog
I saw him stand up and disappear into the fog.
He revived from the dead and ran away
although this is insanity which is what I portray.
Ex Wife
I'm so lost and alone, I have no hope
so I stand at the edge and tighten the rope.
I fall so quickly and to my surprise
I hit the floor and open my eyes.
The rope is split and my head is sore
but now I just can't take it anymore.
I go to my room and search under the bed
and pull out the gun and point it to my head.
I stand in front of the mirror and say a prayer
because everyones life is so unfair.
I look to at the pictures and see my ex wife
and that's the night I didn't have life.
so I stand at the edge and tighten the rope.
I fall so quickly and to my surprise
I hit the floor and open my eyes.
The rope is split and my head is sore
but now I just can't take it anymore.
I go to my room and search under the bed
and pull out the gun and point it to my head.
I stand in front of the mirror and say a prayer
because everyones life is so unfair.
I look to at the pictures and see my ex wife
and that's the night I didn't have life.
Faggot
I wanted freedom and you wanted lust
you were playing with fire, my trust.
When I looked away you went to play
when you looked away I started to stray.
You sucked out my love and left me for dead
and I broke away and found someone instead.
I don't know how to tell you or what to say
but I've turned to men, and now I'm gay.
you were playing with fire, my trust.
When I looked away you went to play
when you looked away I started to stray.
You sucked out my love and left me for dead
and I broke away and found someone instead.
I don't know how to tell you or what to say
but I've turned to men, and now I'm gay.
Tear
I sit on the floor with nothing but lies
and slowly bend over and tighten my eyes.
I slash again, through I don't feel a thing
but eventually I'll feel the sting.
I look at my wrist and all of the scars
and hope I don't get put behind bars.
I hold my breath and my mind is clear
but it's pointless and I start to tear.
and slowly bend over and tighten my eyes.
I slash again, through I don't feel a thing
but eventually I'll feel the sting.
I look at my wrist and all of the scars
and hope I don't get put behind bars.
I hold my breath and my mind is clear
but it's pointless and I start to tear.
From youth
I know I can't change your lies from truth
but that's something you worked on from youth.
You twisted the good and replaced it with bad
and people followed you just like a fad.
There twisted minds were at your disposal
and you lied to them by making proposals.
I'm through with the confusion of lies
and this time there will be no goodbyes.
but that's something you worked on from youth.
You twisted the good and replaced it with bad
and people followed you just like a fad.
There twisted minds were at your disposal
and you lied to them by making proposals.
I'm through with the confusion of lies
and this time there will be no goodbyes.
The limits
Pushed the limits, pushed my love
sent an angel from above.
Who saved us both and made us strong
and made us realize right from wrong.
I thank God and I thank you
and now I know that love is true.
It's mostly a lie and mostly a dream
impossible to grasp because it's supreme.
sent an angel from above.
Who saved us both and made us strong
and made us realize right from wrong.
I thank God and I thank you
and now I know that love is true.
It's mostly a lie and mostly a dream
impossible to grasp because it's supreme.
Down the street
I walk alone down the street
while I very slowly drag my feet.
I hear the sirens and see the full moon
and I realize my problems are strewn.
Across the ground is where they lie
I'm so lost and alone I start to cry.
I must start over and life life all new
but all this doesn't mean a damn to you.
while I very slowly drag my feet.
I hear the sirens and see the full moon
and I realize my problems are strewn.
Across the ground is where they lie
I'm so lost and alone I start to cry.
I must start over and life life all new
but all this doesn't mean a damn to you.
Father
My father died and I'm in shock
so I head outside and go on a walk.
But I turn around and head into my room
and watch a mouse scurry under a broom.
I look outside and imagine my dad
and how he smiled and was never sad
But good things come to an end you see
and life has nothing to guarantee.
Life offers death and life offers war
which these are all problems that I can't ignore.
So I lay down in bed and fall into sleep
dreaming away of counting the sheep.
so I head outside and go on a walk.
But I turn around and head into my room
and watch a mouse scurry under a broom.
I look outside and imagine my dad
and how he smiled and was never sad
But good things come to an end you see
and life has nothing to guarantee.
Life offers death and life offers war
which these are all problems that I can't ignore.
So I lay down in bed and fall into sleep
dreaming away of counting the sheep.
Illusion
Theres so many religions it's like an illusion
and so many gods it's certain confusion.
If we could agree on one religion and god
then we could move from our life in a facade.
Mankind thinks they know the answer
though they can't even cure mans cancer.
We are wondering aimlessly in life
with some many questions that turn rife.
and so many gods it's certain confusion.
If we could agree on one religion and god
then we could move from our life in a facade.
Mankind thinks they know the answer
though they can't even cure mans cancer.
We are wondering aimlessly in life
with some many questions that turn rife.
Price to pay
Your mad at me because I judge
as if I have some awful grudge.
I love you and you know it's true
and that is something that you never knew.
Your friends are whores which you know
In fact, you knew that a long time ago.
Yet you are just like them in every way
and you will have to deal with the price to pay.
as if I have some awful grudge.
I love you and you know it's true
and that is something that you never knew.
Your friends are whores which you know
In fact, you knew that a long time ago.
Yet you are just like them in every way
and you will have to deal with the price to pay.
This Rhyme
Today I woke up and looked outside
and felt the pain slowly subside.
The pain I had was something that hurt
it felt like I had a mouthful of dirt.
After work, I tired to call you
and said you me and you were through.
You thought that I was mad
but I assured you that I was glad.
We've been together for a very long time
but I'll leave you now through this rhyme.
and felt the pain slowly subside.
The pain I had was something that hurt
it felt like I had a mouthful of dirt.
After work, I tired to call you
and said you me and you were through.
You thought that I was mad
but I assured you that I was glad.
We've been together for a very long time
but I'll leave you now through this rhyme.
Started over
I throw your picture against the wall
which was the night we had that brawl.
I scream at myself for what I had done
wish I never knew where she put that gun.
She hid it from me, and now I know why
but now it's too late and there's no goodbye.
We both lie on the ground with blood allover
wishing we could have started over...
which was the night we had that brawl.
I scream at myself for what I had done
wish I never knew where she put that gun.
She hid it from me, and now I know why
but now it's too late and there's no goodbye.
We both lie on the ground with blood allover
wishing we could have started over...
Concrete
While tears fall down and hit the floor
my mom walks out and slams the door.
I grab a pillow and cover my face
wishing I could go to a better place.
The yelling and screaming invade my mind
and sometimes I wish I was truly blind.
The glass that shatters, the vases that break
make all the nerves in my body shake.
The sirens come blaring down the street
and I look at my mom laying on the concrete.
my mom walks out and slams the door.
I grab a pillow and cover my face
wishing I could go to a better place.
The yelling and screaming invade my mind
and sometimes I wish I was truly blind.
The glass that shatters, the vases that break
make all the nerves in my body shake.
The sirens come blaring down the street
and I look at my mom laying on the concrete.
Sometime tomorrow
Slitting wrists and watch the blood
falling into the bloody mud.
Your hair so fine and bloody too
I almost wish I was dead with you.
I'd laugh as you cut away
and laugh some more since you died today.
No one could save you from miserable sorrow
so I'll report it to the police....sometime tomorrow.
falling into the bloody mud.
Your hair so fine and bloody too
I almost wish I was dead with you.
I'd laugh as you cut away
and laugh some more since you died today.
No one could save you from miserable sorrow
so I'll report it to the police....sometime tomorrow.
Insane
Save me from this world of scum
I'm so lost that I've turned numb.
My body is raw and I have no choice
but to scream out loud in such a voice.
So the world can hear my utter pain
and feel what it's like to be insane.
I'm so lost that I've turned numb.
My body is raw and I have no choice
but to scream out loud in such a voice.
So the world can hear my utter pain
and feel what it's like to be insane.
Vow
When you smile I can see your cries
when I hear you laugh, I can hear your lies.
You're killing me, though you don't know
that you're slowly going out of control.
This could have been stopped awhile ago
but you dragged this out, so I'm stopping this now
with sadness and horror I will end our wedding vow.
when I hear you laugh, I can hear your lies.
You're killing me, though you don't know
that you're slowly going out of control.
This could have been stopped awhile ago
but you dragged this out, so I'm stopping this now
with sadness and horror I will end our wedding vow.
The dead
As I lay here on top of my bed
I look in the closet and see people dead.
There heads are chopped off with blood all over
and I start to cry and very slowly turn over.
I see blood on my pillow, my underwear wet
as I lay silently in a pool of my sweat.
I look in the closet and see people dead.
There heads are chopped off with blood all over
and I start to cry and very slowly turn over.
I see blood on my pillow, my underwear wet
as I lay silently in a pool of my sweat.
Blinded by light
How does it feel to be blinded by light?
With your eyes gouged out you have impaired sight.
Like a dog who wonders alone in the park
the vision you see is nothing but dark.
You're handicapped and will be as long as you live
and get nothing in return for you have nothing to give.
With your eyes gouged out you have impaired sight.
Like a dog who wonders alone in the park
the vision you see is nothing but dark.
You're handicapped and will be as long as you live
and get nothing in return for you have nothing to give.
Last breath
No matter what I ever say or do
my words mean nothing to you.
I know I'm confusing sometimes
and you don't wanna deal with the hard times
so you leave me alone and you think that's ok
but our love is stored in some cache.
So I'll walk away and not get mad
and hope you regret this and feel sad.
I knew you so well that it scared me to death
and when I pull this trigger it will be my last breath.
my words mean nothing to you.
I know I'm confusing sometimes
and you don't wanna deal with the hard times
so you leave me alone and you think that's ok
but our love is stored in some cache.
So I'll walk away and not get mad
and hope you regret this and feel sad.
I knew you so well that it scared me to death
and when I pull this trigger it will be my last breath.
Parents
We don't need to argue we are getting nowhere
so lets just look into each others eyes and stare.
Lets go back to the days where kisses were grand
and we sat on the beach with our toes in the sand.
Holding each other swaying back and forth
as the water comes swiftly in from the north.
But since we are yelling and our kids are scared
they have now become visually impaired.
They see me hit you and start to yell
I hear you say "kids don't tell"
so I walk away in frustration and confusion
from this life tah tis just one big disullusion.
so lets just look into each others eyes and stare.
Lets go back to the days where kisses were grand
and we sat on the beach with our toes in the sand.
Holding each other swaying back and forth
as the water comes swiftly in from the north.
But since we are yelling and our kids are scared
they have now become visually impaired.
They see me hit you and start to yell
I hear you say "kids don't tell"
so I walk away in frustration and confusion
from this life tah tis just one big disullusion.
Unkown
The love of your hate, is the future of fate.
Your soul divine, will surely be mine.
Some acts of vile, will lead to denial.
A stomach in pain, will make you insane.
Her smashed head will leave her dead
your brain that pops will be the time your heart stops.
Your soul divine, will surely be mine.
Some acts of vile, will lead to denial.
A stomach in pain, will make you insane.
Her smashed head will leave her dead
your brain that pops will be the time your heart stops.
Easy to grieve
With all this pain, it's easy to grieve
so I fall to the bed and start to heave.
I know my life's ending
I just don't know when.
Every second I live is just one more sin.
I don't want to feel this way, it isn't fun at all
so I curl up on the floor in a gigantic ball.
I can stop this pain, as I look to the blade
but that only shows that I'm very afraid.
So I jump in the bathroom tub and hold my breath
and soon it feels nice to experience such a death.
so I fall to the bed and start to heave.
I know my life's ending
I just don't know when.
Every second I live is just one more sin.
I don't want to feel this way, it isn't fun at all
so I curl up on the floor in a gigantic ball.
I can stop this pain, as I look to the blade
but that only shows that I'm very afraid.
So I jump in the bathroom tub and hold my breath
and soon it feels nice to experience such a death.
What I've done
From what I've done, just can't be true
I took this knife and stabbed it through you.
Your face turned pale, then you fell to the floor
which made me hate you so much more.
The cops came in and took me away
and sent me to jail and made no delay.
I stand behind bars with anger and strife
but what can I say, thats just such as life.
I took this knife and stabbed it through you.
Your face turned pale, then you fell to the floor
which made me hate you so much more.
The cops came in and took me away
and sent me to jail and made no delay.
I stand behind bars with anger and strife
but what can I say, thats just such as life.
Feels so
Please hold my hand and tell me life's alright
as we kiss away all through the night.
I've never felt this way before
and it feels so great
to have someone that I could never hate.
But you could hate me, as I look in your eyes
or would you just skip this and move on to other guys?
as we kiss away all through the night.
I've never felt this way before
and it feels so great
to have someone that I could never hate.
But you could hate me, as I look in your eyes
or would you just skip this and move on to other guys?
Wreck
It must be my time for I'm going to die
and I tell you this while I'm starting to cry.
Please remember I'll never forget, I swear
but as time goes on your heart will tear.
I'm confused as I tighten the noose around my neck
and jump off the bridge seeing my life in a wreck.
and I tell you this while I'm starting to cry.
Please remember I'll never forget, I swear
but as time goes on your heart will tear.
I'm confused as I tighten the noose around my neck
and jump off the bridge seeing my life in a wreck.
A guy
You mean the world to me, you know it's true.
I'd ask you to marry me, but would you say "I Do"?
As I walk up to ask you, I see you with a guy
Then I ask myself "Why is she touching his thigh"?
"Well then" I say say to myself as I clench my fists
by the end of today she wont know he exists.
I'd ask you to marry me, but would you say "I Do"?
As I walk up to ask you, I see you with a guy
Then I ask myself "Why is she touching his thigh"?
"Well then" I say say to myself as I clench my fists
by the end of today she wont know he exists.
Hail
I see lots of kids running through the rain
but hey all got hit by an oncoming train.
So what is the point of this sick and twisted tale?
There bodies will decay with the falling hail.
but hey all got hit by an oncoming train.
So what is the point of this sick and twisted tale?
There bodies will decay with the falling hail.
Power
Darkness comes and darkness goes
But where does it end?
Nobody knows.
It starts somewhere in the heart I'd guess
then explodes to everyone in a giant mess.
I hope I don't have it, I really hope
for I'll turn insane and will not cope.
I'll cause destruction and sheer madness
to the point where every has lost happiness.
I'll gain all the power and rule the world
and wait for my darkness to become unfurled.
But where does it end?
Nobody knows.
It starts somewhere in the heart I'd guess
then explodes to everyone in a giant mess.
I hope I don't have it, I really hope
for I'll turn insane and will not cope.
I'll cause destruction and sheer madness
to the point where every has lost happiness.
I'll gain all the power and rule the world
and wait for my darkness to become unfurled.
The Beach
I can't hold back all of my tears
there's way to many oncoming fears.
When anger rears its ugly head
that's when I really start to dread.
So leave me here sitting by the beach
where death is in most easy reach.
there's way to many oncoming fears.
When anger rears its ugly head
that's when I really start to dread.
So leave me here sitting by the beach
where death is in most easy reach.
Weight
Your body has become somewhat thinned
I believe your life has come to an end.
You starved your body and never ate
So your body lost controllable weight.
You withered away with the passing time
and never experienced the joy of sublime.
I believe your life has come to an end.
You starved your body and never ate
So your body lost controllable weight.
You withered away with the passing time
and never experienced the joy of sublime.
crash
I see you laying there, you're face so gashed
and your head that is bashed
is bleeding within your body that is trashed.
I look closer and see you've been lashed
disappointed that I've missed the car crash.
and your head that is bashed
is bleeding within your body that is trashed.
I look closer and see you've been lashed
disappointed that I've missed the car crash.
Smoking
I've gone to drinking, and it feel so right
but sometimes I get a malignant fright.
So I quit drinking and start smoking
but that didn't help and I started choking.
I fall on the floor gasping for air
but I only feel that because there's none there.
So i roll off the bed and start to turn blue
realizing that my life is through.
but sometimes I get a malignant fright.
So I quit drinking and start smoking
but that didn't help and I started choking.
I fall on the floor gasping for air
but I only feel that because there's none there.
So i roll off the bed and start to turn blue
realizing that my life is through.
Drowning
I saw you fall into water and start to drown
but I just stood there and started to frown.
Though I couldn't tell you why I was so sad
I saw someone saving you and it was your dad
he was running frantically trying to save your soul
but I think your dad was way out of control.
You died that day and it wasn't that great
because my love for you had turned to hate.
So I'll sit her and tan in the sun
wondering how I'm not gonna have fun.
but I just stood there and started to frown.
Though I couldn't tell you why I was so sad
I saw someone saving you and it was your dad
he was running frantically trying to save your soul
but I think your dad was way out of control.
You died that day and it wasn't that great
because my love for you had turned to hate.
So I'll sit her and tan in the sun
wondering how I'm not gonna have fun.
Against the wall, Hate.
I've chained this hate toward you against the wall
and hope that it won't make our love stall.
Though I must say that I'm not alright
and you won't see me at all tonight.
It's true, I can't fix every scratch
It's something you can't fix with just a patch.
I'll never fight your war that can't be won
so tonight will be the night I hold this gun.
and use my finger to pull the trigger
only this time the wound will be bigger.
So don't bother to come and solve pain
because in the end you'll have nothing to gain.
and hope that it won't make our love stall.
Though I must say that I'm not alright
and you won't see me at all tonight.
It's true, I can't fix every scratch
It's something you can't fix with just a patch.
I'll never fight your war that can't be won
so tonight will be the night I hold this gun.
and use my finger to pull the trigger
only this time the wound will be bigger.
So don't bother to come and solve pain
because in the end you'll have nothing to gain.
Iron and steel
Your heart is made of iron and steel
so our love is circling like a gigantic wheel.
Look at our love going down the drain
almost like driving to fast in the left lane.
I must say there's no turning back
so your going to have to cut me some slack.
Let us live alone just for awhile
though it probably won't work since we're both in denial.
so our love is circling like a gigantic wheel.
Look at our love going down the drain
almost like driving to fast in the left lane.
I must say there's no turning back
so your going to have to cut me some slack.
Let us live alone just for awhile
though it probably won't work since we're both in denial.
Big Joke
Twisting and turning your heart starts burning
with what you deal with is simply learning.
You call this a game, and a very big joke
but with all your lies you will soon choke.
Stop the lies and the evil hate
this isn't a fight, just a small debate.
The you started is out of control
and you aren't so important anymore.
So pack up your bags and walk away
and please hurry and make no delay.
with what you deal with is simply learning.
You call this a game, and a very big joke
but with all your lies you will soon choke.
Stop the lies and the evil hate
this isn't a fight, just a small debate.
The you started is out of control
and you aren't so important anymore.
So pack up your bags and walk away
and please hurry and make no delay.
Joyous
Your too immature, You're way to young
To be in a relationship that isn't a pun.
You can't make commitments
You want to have fun.
But when there are problems
that's when you're done.
To be in a relationship that isn't a pun.
You can't make commitments
You want to have fun.
But when there are problems
that's when you're done.
The breeze
I open the door and let in the breeze
I look outside and see lots of tree's.
There is a bird flying high in the sky
It reminds me of our love and how it's a lie.
You say you love, and I say I love you
but after that I slowly turn blue.
I realize we were never meant to be
It's just a matter of time before you will see.
I look outside and see lots of tree's.
There is a bird flying high in the sky
It reminds me of our love and how it's a lie.
You say you love, and I say I love you
but after that I slowly turn blue.
I realize we were never meant to be
It's just a matter of time before you will see.
Drudge
Coming from your hateful drudge
I now have to live with this grudge.
You beat me and threw me away
the only thing now I do is pray.
I want this to be over, I've hurt too much
So were going to die, and I say this as much.
That destiny will end our revolution
and I will end up giving your execution.
I now have to live with this grudge.
You beat me and threw me away
the only thing now I do is pray.
I want this to be over, I've hurt too much
So were going to die, and I say this as much.
That destiny will end our revolution
and I will end up giving your execution.
I've ran away from home
I've ran away from home, Do you notice I'm not there?
I've ran away from home, Do you even really care?
I've ran away from home, I was never on your side.
I've ran away from home, As your child I was denied.
I've ran away from home, I sit under this tree
I've ran away from home, and I've never felt as free
I've ran away from home, Do you even really care?
I've ran away from home, I was never on your side.
I've ran away from home, As your child I was denied.
I've ran away from home, I sit under this tree
I've ran away from home, and I've never felt as free
Anxiety
I've become what you wanted, and now I'm your slave
I will die with you now, and be in your grave.
You can't let go of me anymore
I've become attached in your sick war.
There's no breaking free and no escape
I'm molded with you in every odd shape.
Every second im with you there's no turning back
and soon we'll both die of an anxiety attack.
I will die with you now, and be in your grave.
You can't let go of me anymore
I've become attached in your sick war.
There's no breaking free and no escape
I'm molded with you in every odd shape.
Every second im with you there's no turning back
and soon we'll both die of an anxiety attack.
Meth
My feelings for you just doesn't come clear
as I'm driving to fast in fourth gear.
I know there's a problem of something I don't know
I guess this is how my feelings are beginning to show.
I turn this corner and run out of luck
for my car gets smashed into an oncoming truck.
I fly through the windshield staring at death
but I think this is just a side effect of me taking Meth.
as I'm driving to fast in fourth gear.
I know there's a problem of something I don't know
I guess this is how my feelings are beginning to show.
I turn this corner and run out of luck
for my car gets smashed into an oncoming truck.
I fly through the windshield staring at death
but I think this is just a side effect of me taking Meth.
The lack
Hearts break, hands shake, children wake, Lives at stake.
People die, lovers cry, dishonest spy, and cheaters lie.
Wrists bleed, injustice lead, mans greed, smokers weed
Elderly end, wealthy spend ladies friend and rich lend.
Babies trashed, heads bashed, bodies smashes, faces gashed
conscious weigh, animals astray, popes pray, and poor pay.
Low esteem, unworthy dream, liars scheme, helpless scream
mothers daughter, peoples slaughter but most of all just lack of water.
People die, lovers cry, dishonest spy, and cheaters lie.
Wrists bleed, injustice lead, mans greed, smokers weed
Elderly end, wealthy spend ladies friend and rich lend.
Babies trashed, heads bashed, bodies smashes, faces gashed
conscious weigh, animals astray, popes pray, and poor pay.
Low esteem, unworthy dream, liars scheme, helpless scream
mothers daughter, peoples slaughter but most of all just lack of water.
An end
As I scream and holler for this joy to stop
I just to hold my breath till I pop.
But nothing is right, and this I can see
since I will never ever feel as free.
Yes I'm in love and it feels so grand
to have you sitting by me holding my hand.
I know this will only be bliss
especially when we start to kiss.
"So whats the big issue?" and my brain starts to bend
"I know that this relationship will come to an end."
I just to hold my breath till I pop.
But nothing is right, and this I can see
since I will never ever feel as free.
Yes I'm in love and it feels so grand
to have you sitting by me holding my hand.
I know this will only be bliss
especially when we start to kiss.
"So whats the big issue?" and my brain starts to bend
"I know that this relationship will come to an end."
Out of my mind
I wear this black makeup to hid my true face
because all of my life I've lived as a disgrace.
My mom is in jail, and my dad is out drinking
and I stare at this wall without even blinking.
My life so unstable, my life so bad
A figure walks up behind and I see it's my dad.
He lifts me by the shirt and he starts to yell
with words that he speaks of, I can't even tell.
He throws me on the ground, passing out on the floor
as he's shaking policemen break open the door.
My dad starts to wake and gets beat over the head
at the end of the fight 2 policeman are dead.
They haul him to jail with a three hundred thousand bail
and I end this story of a miserable tale.
because all of my life I've lived as a disgrace.
My mom is in jail, and my dad is out drinking
and I stare at this wall without even blinking.
My life so unstable, my life so bad
A figure walks up behind and I see it's my dad.
He lifts me by the shirt and he starts to yell
with words that he speaks of, I can't even tell.
He throws me on the ground, passing out on the floor
as he's shaking policemen break open the door.
My dad starts to wake and gets beat over the head
at the end of the fight 2 policeman are dead.
They haul him to jail with a three hundred thousand bail
and I end this story of a miserable tale.
Poor
I want to eat, Im hungry as hell
and there is no mom or dad to tell.
I'm living off the streets and eating the mice
and the sewage provided adds nice tasty spice.
I sometimes eat paper, though there isn't much taste
but sometimes it's good if you add lots of paste.
I found some raw chicken, though It's not good for you
So I enjoy eating this tongue of an old dirty shoe.
As I sit in this alley alone in the dark
I look around and hear a dog bark.
I'm so lost and afraid as I start to moan
but I accept that I will always be alone.
and there is no mom or dad to tell.
I'm living off the streets and eating the mice
and the sewage provided adds nice tasty spice.
I sometimes eat paper, though there isn't much taste
but sometimes it's good if you add lots of paste.
I found some raw chicken, though It's not good for you
So I enjoy eating this tongue of an old dirty shoe.
As I sit in this alley alone in the dark
I look around and hear a dog bark.
I'm so lost and afraid as I start to moan
but I accept that I will always be alone.
Rage and Fire
Like rage and fire you consume me as prey
but your heart has no turned to fine clay.
Sometimes if I'm lucky I might hear you say
"Oh why won't it rain on his beautiful day?"
I know what ryou want and I know what you need
is another poor soul for your own daily feed.
Well this will stop now and forever
because you can't fool me, you're not that clever.
So stop right now and take a chill
I'll watch you decay and turn into sill.
I'm glad you're gone and out of my life
I now don't have to live in miserable strife.
but your heart has no turned to fine clay.
Sometimes if I'm lucky I might hear you say
"Oh why won't it rain on his beautiful day?"
I know what ryou want and I know what you need
is another poor soul for your own daily feed.
Well this will stop now and forever
because you can't fool me, you're not that clever.
So stop right now and take a chill
I'll watch you decay and turn into sill.
I'm glad you're gone and out of my life
I now don't have to live in miserable strife.
Wife
Everyday and every night
we always end up in one big fight.
I want it to stop right here and now
but there is just no way and no how.
So lets split up and go our ways
until the time comes and brings back the days
where we'd kiss and hold hands under the sun
but it took to much time, and wasn't much fun.
so I'm over you, are you over me?
Stop wasting my time and get a life
so I can get myself a new beautiful wife.
we always end up in one big fight.
I want it to stop right here and now
but there is just no way and no how.
So lets split up and go our ways
until the time comes and brings back the days
where we'd kiss and hold hands under the sun
but it took to much time, and wasn't much fun.
so I'm over you, are you over me?
Stop wasting my time and get a life
so I can get myself a new beautiful wife.
Something bad
Once there was a boy who did something bad
and he walked into the kitchen and told his dad.
His dad got out the belt and whipped him so hard
that his brain blew up and he became a retard.
This is a pointless poem I really must say
Unless you look at your life this way..
and he walked into the kitchen and told his dad.
His dad got out the belt and whipped him so hard
that his brain blew up and he became a retard.
This is a pointless poem I really must say
Unless you look at your life this way..
Drift
I never could get you to come back and love me
But that's okay, I guess our love was just like debris.
It would drift away from time to time
and we never knew love was an act of a crime.
So don't come to me crawling on your knees
I know your acts and it's like a disease.
It's so wrong in every which way
but this will end by the end of today.
But that's okay, I guess our love was just like debris.
It would drift away from time to time
and we never knew love was an act of a crime.
So don't come to me crawling on your knees
I know your acts and it's like a disease.
It's so wrong in every which way
but this will end by the end of today.
Eternal Life
No one believes me and no one does care
about how I've become such a fright and a scare.
Is this my eternal life
or does it end in strife?
I don't know the answer, and I really don't care
but I'll teach them one day and this I swear
By doing something drastic to catch there attention
and loosen myself from this stiff unpleasant tension.
about how I've become such a fright and a scare.
Is this my eternal life
or does it end in strife?
I don't know the answer, and I really don't care
but I'll teach them one day and this I swear
By doing something drastic to catch there attention
and loosen myself from this stiff unpleasant tension.
Me
As I lay in my room with nothing to do
I feel so awkward and turned askew.
My parents don't know, and they don't care
so I'll sit down and tremble a prayer
and hope one day they'll understand
that I came here by chance, I was never planned.
They drink there booze and laugh away
but they don't realize how suicidal I am today..
I feel so awkward and turned askew.
My parents don't know, and they don't care
so I'll sit down and tremble a prayer
and hope one day they'll understand
that I came here by chance, I was never planned.
They drink there booze and laugh away
but they don't realize how suicidal I am today..
The Darkness
The darkness you hold is so black and vile
People don't find out, because there in such denial.
They say your beautiful and love you so much
but have they ever felt your horrid touch?
Do they know your in such unbearable pain?
Do they know you cut your wrists straight to the vain?
While you slowly allow all this blood to drip
You don't even realize you're in one hell of a trip...
People don't find out, because there in such denial.
They say your beautiful and love you so much
but have they ever felt your horrid touch?
Do they know your in such unbearable pain?
Do they know you cut your wrists straight to the vain?
While you slowly allow all this blood to drip
You don't even realize you're in one hell of a trip...
Help
Help me now, my life is doomed
For out of my soul a demon bloomed.
I tried to stop it with all my might
but I just fell over and started to blight.
I've done too much, I've gone to far
and my soul has been hurt, and left a scar.
I see your afraid, with every right to be
and I don't forgive myself, I have no glee.
I stand here alone and start to cry
as this demon comes out I fall to the floor
and soon I die.
For out of my soul a demon bloomed.
I tried to stop it with all my might
but I just fell over and started to blight.
I've done too much, I've gone to far
and my soul has been hurt, and left a scar.
I see your afraid, with every right to be
and I don't forgive myself, I have no glee.
I stand here alone and start to cry
as this demon comes out I fall to the floor
and soon I die.
Out of your life
Coming out of your life I feel so free
There's only one thing I don't really see.
How could you love me with all of your wit
and then in the end decide to split?
I never thought you acted this way before
but I was mistaken mother fuckin whore.
You screwed up my life and threw me away
and acted like nothing had happened anyway.
Well the tables have now turned
and your going to suffer with what you have earned..
There's only one thing I don't really see.
How could you love me with all of your wit
and then in the end decide to split?
I never thought you acted this way before
but I was mistaken mother fuckin whore.
You screwed up my life and threw me away
and acted like nothing had happened anyway.
Well the tables have now turned
and your going to suffer with what you have earned..
Not Mine
This is not my fight, this is not my war
this is your death that your fighting for.
Don't include me in your acts of fate
and don't make this a political debate.
It's you and yourself and it will be that way
until the time comes for you to pay.
of all the hearts that you have stolen
As your heart becomes more and more swollen.
Just stop the madness now, and let us rest
and don't say your doing this out of jest.
The demons possess you like no other.
So please do this for God's sake and mine
and quit your acts that are so malign.
this is your death that your fighting for.
Don't include me in your acts of fate
and don't make this a political debate.
It's you and yourself and it will be that way
until the time comes for you to pay.
of all the hearts that you have stolen
As your heart becomes more and more swollen.
Just stop the madness now, and let us rest
and don't say your doing this out of jest.
The demons possess you like no other.
So please do this for God's sake and mine
and quit your acts that are so malign.
A girl I knew
"I hate my life" I heard you yell
as you have such a wonderful story to tell.
Of how you were beaten when you were younger
and they'd send you to bed with your stomach in hunger.
You'd lay down in bed and wish you were dead
but there are a few more things that haven't been said.
Like how they would stuff you in that lonely shed
they'd laugh in your face because you weren't fed.
You'd like to call the police when all alone
but you wouldn't be able, there's no telephone.
You soon realize that life's not so bad
the knife looks inviting, but so does the drill
your hands start to shake since your out to kill.
Your parents let you out and and mock you some more
but there evil mocks won't effect you anymore.
With the twist of a drill and the stab of a blade
your parents starting to look very afraid.
But before they know it, there on the floor dead
So you wash off the blood and brush off the dirt
Not even feeling the slightest bit hurt.
But with no friends, and nowhere to go
You take the knife and drift away with the falling snow..
as you have such a wonderful story to tell.
Of how you were beaten when you were younger
and they'd send you to bed with your stomach in hunger.
You'd lay down in bed and wish you were dead
but there are a few more things that haven't been said.
Like how they would stuff you in that lonely shed
they'd laugh in your face because you weren't fed.
You'd like to call the police when all alone
but you wouldn't be able, there's no telephone.
You soon realize that life's not so bad
the knife looks inviting, but so does the drill
your hands start to shake since your out to kill.
Your parents let you out and and mock you some more
but there evil mocks won't effect you anymore.
With the twist of a drill and the stab of a blade
your parents starting to look very afraid.
But before they know it, there on the floor dead
So you wash off the blood and brush off the dirt
Not even feeling the slightest bit hurt.
But with no friends, and nowhere to go
You take the knife and drift away with the falling snow..
Laugh
I laugh at myself for being so mean
but as you know I'm only a teen,
I'm really quite nice, and always sober
but get in my way and your life will be over.
You better enjoy life and not ever sight
Or I'll smash your face, lookin' like a blueberry pie.
but as you know I'm only a teen,
I'm really quite nice, and always sober
but get in my way and your life will be over.
You better enjoy life and not ever sight
Or I'll smash your face, lookin' like a blueberry pie.
Friends
As I sit here right now I look to the crowd
I feel so lonely and not even proud.
As I stare at everyone, staring back at me
I then come to realize that it's much harder to see.
The friends I had before are not the friends I know.
I wish I could act myself, as I put on this show
I'm shaking inside feeling so scared and confused
as everyone laughs at me being amused.
I guess I'm more neglected then abused
but this only shows that I'm extremely confused.
I feel so lonely and not even proud.
As I stare at everyone, staring back at me
I then come to realize that it's much harder to see.
The friends I had before are not the friends I know.
I wish I could act myself, as I put on this show
I'm shaking inside feeling so scared and confused
as everyone laughs at me being amused.
I guess I'm more neglected then abused
but this only shows that I'm extremely confused.
You
Why do you hate me so much? It's true,
I know I couldn't stand being around you.
Though I caught you one evening at another guys house
and before I knew it he was under your blouse.
Or were you wearing a dress? I really can't tell.
But it'd doesn't matter, God will damn you to hell.
I know I couldn't stand being around you.
Though I caught you one evening at another guys house
and before I knew it he was under your blouse.
Or were you wearing a dress? I really can't tell.
But it'd doesn't matter, God will damn you to hell.
The Shovel
I take this shovel and beat my dogs head
and watch him fall over realizing he's dead.
Why have I committed such a crime?
I hope this will be the very last time.
I don't think I'm insane. I hope I'm not.
I think this is me doing way to much pot
the things drugs do will slowly kill you
and the cause and effect will make you turn blue.
and watch him fall over realizing he's dead.
Why have I committed such a crime?
I hope this will be the very last time.
I don't think I'm insane. I hope I'm not.
I think this is me doing way to much pot
the things drugs do will slowly kill you
and the cause and effect will make you turn blue.
Drunk Driving
As I'm driving too fast, my face beat red
I see a few rocks, tree's and people ahead
I try to stop and try to slow down
but the girl my car hit is now safe and sound.
I look at the parents screaming and yelling
for what I have done, there is no telling.
I open the door and fall to the floor.
The smell so bad and my stomach so turned
this is one lesson that I have just learned.
What happens when you drink too many beers
is you wind up in prison for just a few years...
I see a few rocks, tree's and people ahead
I try to stop and try to slow down
but the girl my car hit is now safe and sound.
I look at the parents screaming and yelling
for what I have done, there is no telling.
I open the door and fall to the floor.
The smell so bad and my stomach so turned
this is one lesson that I have just learned.
What happens when you drink too many beers
is you wind up in prison for just a few years...
Thrown
Thrown in your arms you squeeze me so tight
as im in your arms I realize I'm taking flight
through the darkness and light and everything wired
I tehn fall asleep from being so tired.
As I wake up the next morning, the bed being cold
Your suitcase is out and your packing away
You laugh at me saying "Go to hell"
I then chuckle and say "Time will tell".
You sneer at me as I blow you a kiss
I then go to the bathroom and take a long piss.
as im in your arms I realize I'm taking flight
through the darkness and light and everything wired
I tehn fall asleep from being so tired.
As I wake up the next morning, the bed being cold
Your suitcase is out and your packing away
You laugh at me saying "Go to hell"
I then chuckle and say "Time will tell".
You sneer at me as I blow you a kiss
I then go to the bathroom and take a long piss.
I write poems
I like to write poems, and that's what I do
so go ahead and Throw me a shoe.
I'll throw it right back and laugh in your face
and make you embarrassed as a total disgrace.
You may start to cry or you may hope to die
but I'll keep on laughing till your tears run dry.
That's what I'll do because I'm sick and insane
laugh at me more and I'll cut your jugular vain.
You say I am bad and you say I am vile
then watch me tie you up and push you in the Nile..
so go ahead and Throw me a shoe.
I'll throw it right back and laugh in your face
and make you embarrassed as a total disgrace.
You may start to cry or you may hope to die
but I'll keep on laughing till your tears run dry.
That's what I'll do because I'm sick and insane
laugh at me more and I'll cut your jugular vain.
You say I am bad and you say I am vile
then watch me tie you up and push you in the Nile..
I love you
When you cry tears I feel your pain
you slash your wrists till you hit the vain
I wish you wouldn't, it's bad for you
I thought it meant more when I said "I love you"
I guess you don't love me like you used to do
and i'll sit here and wonder what to do..
you slash your wrists till you hit the vain
I wish you wouldn't, it's bad for you
I thought it meant more when I said "I love you"
I guess you don't love me like you used to do
and i'll sit here and wonder what to do..
The stab
I stab this pencil through my head
wishing I was truly dead
I realize I cannot die
So I sit on my bed and I start to cry
"Why can't I end my life
and with what makes life so full of strife?"
I then bend down and grab a bat
and whack my head till I go "SPLAT"
wishing I was truly dead
I realize I cannot die
So I sit on my bed and I start to cry
"Why can't I end my life
and with what makes life so full of strife?"
I then bend down and grab a bat
and whack my head till I go "SPLAT"
My fear
My fears of love tear me apart,
Grabbing life by the limbs I try to restart.
You won't let me run and you won't let me hid
so my love for you drifts away with the tide.
By becoming this monster it's hard to ignore
the more I love, makes me hate you so much more.
Grabbing life by the limbs I try to restart.
You won't let me run and you won't let me hid
so my love for you drifts away with the tide.
By becoming this monster it's hard to ignore
the more I love, makes me hate you so much more.
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