As I look back.

Once upon a time
In a far away place 
There was this boy 
And his name was chase.
 
As an outcast 
Walking through school 
Eyes would judge 
Cuz different aint cool. 

Barely made friends 
Yet he still got by
Played six strings 
Cuz that was his high.

Walked off stage
Diploma in hand
Barely graduated 
Still had no plan.

Worked full time 
Like an average adult.
Had romance 
still young at heart. 

Maybe too young 
Cuz till this day 
He will never again
Throw love away.

Moved to a city 
Still worked full time
Hoping someday 
His light will shine.

Never made excuses 
Still done things right 
Showing young punks
How to live the high life

Worked night and day
Never made a real friend
He would never follow 
Cuz leaders don't depend.

Cept only on himself
That's the way it had to be 
Leading by example 
So they could all see.

Hard work pays, 
Yes it pays every time
Won't kick back
Wont try to unwind

Made a deal with the devil
Just like a signed pact.
And here a year later
He's taking his life back.

Shawty

Still about my business
I aint stopping, I aint done.
I will climb the corporate ladder
Till my face hits the sun.
In a bently or a Benz
Always be at number one.

Competition with myself
Yeah it's how I like to roll
Over gossips and them liars
Cuz they outta my control.

Ignorant excuses
It's so hard for me to see
In full control of my life
Yeah That's how it oughta be.

Life

See,
Sometimes it's tough,
sometimes its rough to go on
but "stuff" never gets me down for this long.
so I take step back and see myself in your shoes
realize that in life, that I got nothing to loose.
and neither do you, that's the beauty of it all
We can all rise above, and in the long haul
we reap the benefits, only if we stand tall.
be glad for being white or black, no stereotype,
and to all those who judge
I won't even hold a grudge
cuz I know myself
please, set me on the shelf
if you can't feel
my flow
but know,
I only show
respect
and I will never reject what I don't know.

Now here we go again
passionate to win
but the race will never end
since it always will began.
Like the circle of life.
Strife's never an issue
if love is made up of life


To create a happiness
you must do it on your own
Gotta plant the seeds
just let it be sown.

I

I don't know what I'm pursuing
stumped, like a chump
is how i'm living.
what i'm doing
where i'm at.
All I know for sure
is that I'm looking forward
never turning back,
never loosing hope,
but then I choke
cuz I cannot cope
with the fact
that my own shit is wack
people doubting me
Always looking back
But like a joke They laugh
I laugh too
twice as much
because I knew
while I struggle
and juggle these burdens
through and through
dont take my shoes
you cannot afford this god forsaken life I choose!

Go Home! Give up!
is what they all want me just to do
But I keep on spitting and shitting
Like I got nothing to loose
they say that some won't make it
So it was my choice to choose
rolled my dice, not afraid
got down on one knee and prayed
cuz my demons aren't letting up
my past keeps on catching up
life just won't let me catch up
and rise above what matters most
so here's a toast, I'm out breath
and almost certain that my death
won't come in time
cuz life is not at all that kind
let me rewind.

For heavens sake I still shake
Like an earthquake
How long will it take
Cuz my own life's at stake.
Sometimes my own rhyme
Takes too much time
So I stick this finger up
and suck it up
Like there's just no better time
For my own stars to align.

And if I ever find my destiny
Inside of me, well hopefully
It'll set me free so I can be
Who I wanna be
But who that is I just can't see.
Seems like insecurity won't go away
But not today,
because that's the price
I have to pay,
for today and tomorrow
And the rest.
I will continue growing strong
And be my very best, not impressed?
Let me guess
And when I come back with the answer
You will know that it's success
And the fact I'm blessed.
Unless
This fucking demons toying in my head
Shit I thought I had that riddin
Who I'm kiddin?
It was hidden.
I'm bed ridden.
Like my dreams and desires getting higher
Like this temperature
I feel like I'm burnin on fire.

So?

So what,
that your shirts are pressed
Or your lifes a mess
Cuz we all the same people
in the end, i guess.
We start from nothing
we go back to nothing.
why am I here or who am I?
sometimes it leaves me guessin.
maybe a blessin in disguise
but through my own eyes
I cannot realize
how many people talking whack
whether you be white
or you be black
whether your rich
or you just poor
when the police are at your door.
whether you can provide food
for your family
from your gorcery store.

CD's Nuts

Clean cut, what up, yea you know who it is.


Real rapping
straight crapping
either way ya'll know
what I spit is so legit.
yet you know how I commit
Straight to your memory
oh and lets not forget,
Them haters I won't touch
Cuz they never amount to much.
With these words I strip em naked
Then They start to blush.
Red in the face,
now I conclude my case.
Stayin reals what I do
Or my name isn't Chase.

pft

"Whatever" I keep saying,
cause blamin myself ain't payin
So I take a new direction
and see that it's complicating
when I'm just about to quit
I get right back up and I spit

cuz it's always on me,
accept the fact
and know that it sets me free
yes it gives me an idea
of what my future holds for me


but I will never spill it, ya'll don't want those beans
I mean,
I only struggle cuz I know it's what's best.
I know it makes me tougher so I can rise above the rest.
I could never imagine a world without pain
cause that's what makes me stronger and have more to gain.
man that's a mind trip,
man I should totally flip,
even though I'm a mess
I keep working toward the top.
Which I might never reach
cuz it's always outta reach
but it ain't like me to stop

cause

that'll only happen if I end up dead
which'll be the day that nothing else is said

damn

I wanna have stamina to win this race
and if I fall down, i'll wipe the dirt off my face.
Yes sirrrrr

One more time.

Punk ass pussy little faggot of a bitch.

You Messin around
and forgot who your dealing with?
I should cut you up sideways
In maybe 1 or 2, 3 or 4 prices
What would you do?
But that ain't like me,
A fighter till the end.
Or a dangerous killer,
Not a real good friend.

I ain't gotta say shit
or do shit for real.
I keep it low key
Till I seal the deal.

Like a kilo in the back
I keep it on track
That's the story of my life
And I ain't Holding nothing back.

Everyone can judge or grudge and be judged.
But what can you accept when you expect respect?

Nothing less and nothing more,
Just everything that I've asked for.

This Is how I let you know.

Look at all these bitches how they craze me
It'll amaze me
This shit don't phase me
Drives me crazy.

Everybody knows of some hos
And this is how it goes.

They only good for one thing,
Maybe 2.

Fucking, cleaning, and giving head too.
(that was three)

So you see,

You wonder why I never stick around to be found
Cuz these hos, they always come and go
any real man will know.

Nobody.

I provide the right step
In this journey of life
Stumbled and fell
But still knew it was right.

As I sit here and write
I let my thoughts take flight
And if they never come back
I still know it's alright.

Cuz there's always a battle
And there's always a choice
But in the end
It's always said through voice.

No one has to listen
No one has to care.
Yet I'll say what I have to say
even if it's to the air.

Oh yes.

I've got a few things to say....

i'm a little ashamed, but its all the same
Like last summer, stuck in this mind frame
and its a dark twisted passageway.

Oh well, here I go, everything I've got to show,
I can't take you or myself serious anymore.

A bad guy, A good guy, or asshole douche
A fag, womanizer, or spinless boy to push.

How do I handle the constant struggle and mess?
Drugs, alcohol, exercise and rap I guess.

I hate most, because I see in them what I see in me.
Pride, a struggling mess and a lot of envy.

I'm blessed in almost every way, which I don't notice
because my mind DOES NOT WORK THAT WAY.

If I could habitually see the good,
If I could habitually push myself.

But I won't, I choose not too.
I choose to struggle, I choose to lie.
I choose chaos and I DON'T WHYY.

Why oh why.

Here we go. Again.

I never worry, so I hurry to the bathroom.
Yes it's almost eight.
That's when my job starts
so i'm obviously running late.
I lift the lid, my head spins
I start to salivate.
Too many pills, so some food
might set my stomach straight.
Nacho cheese on a pickel
(its the diet to control my weight.)
I chomp it down, turn around
and then I hear the sound.
My stomach churns, I turn
and feel the stomach acid burn.
Miss the bowl, hit the floor
fortunately it's happened once before.

I grab the pepto and chug it
oh how my tummy does love it.
One last dry heave,
then to work I leave.

I've come to believe
this is me in depression
Yes that's my confession
and this is my outlet
through this rhyme
cuz I've got no time
But I just can't see
what my fate has in store for me.

Double boom

In confinement with my snow
Locks up me up, one way to Go.

Down or up it's all the same
Everyday, it's so mundane.

To the doctors there I went,
To get prescribed my money spent.

"a.d.d., bi polar and depression"
Doctors words like an obsession.

"don't give up" the doctor said
"your a nice young man and so clean cut."

"okay thanks"
(I hear so many compliments, it makes me sick,
I get so tired of lifes bullshit.)

Make this end, make it stop
My hat was raised but now it's dropped.

In confinement with my snow.
Up and down away I go.

Introduction

I introduce myself as
a person that might you know
lemme take a minute
so I can just say Hello.

I don't hear your voice and for that
no one will care
walk up to the mic and
show us all that your really there.

I can do what I do whenever I wanna do
and I ain't slowing neither
cuz you'd think I was fucking with you?

You wouldn't waste your time
and you know I won't waste mine.
But since this is what your reading
You will know that my stars shine
you can see it glistening.

kinda like Money
Flowing just like water
kinda like tears from your eyes
Straight into my pocket
Oh,
You think i'm spitting lies?

Shit if that's the case
then I'm just broke as fuck
and the way I live my life?
In despair with no luck.

Take a look at the situation.

Thoughts of that joyous, righteous and pure
are swallowed by pride,
for in pain there's no cure.

Where one used to laugh, happy and free
are shackled and bound,
for all to see.

Where freedom, free spirit and power of will
are all pushed aside,
sliding full force downhill.

Deep in your sorrow, you've buried your shame.
Born from foolishness,
foolish you remain.

The apples has fallen right next to the tree.

Surprisingly enough

It hadn't been me....

This boy.

Who can move away at the drop of a hat...and not come back?
Who doesn't have to hide behind scholarships, loans or FREE TUITION?
Who doesn't have to join the military so the government can PROVIDE for them?
Who has applicable social skills, and can meet new people and live with?
Who has near perfect credit, and can financially support himself anywhere he goes?
Who can actually WORK for what he gets?
Who can FINANCIALLY  handle ADULT RESPONSBILITIES, where most can't or choose not to?
Who FORCEFULLY puts themselves in places/situations where HE only has HIMSELF for guidance and support?
Who CHOOSES NOT TO DEPEND on "friends" and family or a Girlfriend so as to gain strength and learn to walk on his own two feet?

This "boy".
 
I will tell you something about this "boy".
 
He isn't mature in some areas..

BUT, HE IS LEARNING, LIVING REAL LIFE and CAN FINANCIALLY AFFORD TO DO THIS ON HIS OWN.
 
Where most need there parents and/or friends for help and support.
 
Yes, he laughs and pity the scums that walk this earth.
Who live each day to day to party or get some petty ass.
Who have no class, no self respect.
 
He always will remain on top.
 
While the others will coward and hide behind there friends and family.
 
Show yourself to the world for what you're truly worth
 
Maggots

Please read.

I write this as I'm driving through this snow storm to Anchorage.


If I pass away, I wish to be remembered as a gentleman.
I sometimes feel I don't deserve that title, so atleast let me pass away
as someone respected till the end.

Thank you.

Girls

They think they got there fingers slipped
around this shit
Girls think again.
Gossip lies rumors?
where the ---- do I began?
lets pretend
that most woman are a saint,
pretend that they are an angel
of this picture that I paint
Well they ain't

Let me restraint
myself,
from name calling
cuz ballin ain't helping,
Slutty, Self Sorry, Sorority..
Whoops
Enough name calling,
they know when I'm bein crass.
But are they smart enough
to really just try and grasp
where exactly that i'm from
cuz a lotta women i'm seein
are being plain dumb.
A benefit of the doubt,
No more will I give them
cuz all they seem to wanna do
is go out and get some
when they just don't realize
how they look
from another
self dignified pair of eyes.
It's a shame,
Who's to blame?
Only those I won't name.




My shits So sick
I have to spit,
admit
I'm right
Girls get quiet
when I speak my mind
They used to have
the upper hand
But not this time!
What?
You want some love?
You won't get none
This sums up my point to a T
get the fuck outta my way
Bitch, don't make me!
"What you gonna do Chase?"
What I shoulda done
in the very first place.
Get off this track,
cuz the way I sound
is a tad bit wack.
I might double over
from a heart attack.
cuz all this crack
makes me believe
girls aren't all that.
Lets put em in the sack
smack em in the head
and see how the like that.

I slipped and fell in shit instead of love.

Shit, put that picture from the shelf up on the wall and lay it face down
annoyed, so overjoyed, I'm pretty hate bound.
guilt from my trip, paranoia's got me zipped lipped, pleading the fifth
and I could never come to a firm grip

Yea I played the silent card, yea I played it real hard,
personality, and emotion, there is no regard.
I can't help but wonder if I never left all
would have it been real better for me and you after all?


I'm done asking questions,
only answers can help now

don't think I see you frontin,
Bitch!
I can call every foul!

I can call every shot!
Damn me to hell, if I pity myself now intentionally or not!

I'm not stopping here, I've got some shit on my chest
that'll hit you full force with or without your bullet proof vest!

Ahem *clears throat*

Me against the world, Maybe not or maybe or so.
Where's the motivation when you have nowhere to go?
Concentration at a lack,
they say you never should turn back
but where wold be the fun in that?

Pistol whipped and now I'm dead
But look who's alive inside your head.

These words are tattooed and you'll never forget

REMEMBER WHO'S WORTHY
AND WHO'S MADE OF SHIT.

Yus sir

Me a pimp to player
you just a broke ass hater
tryin to dawg on me?
like a bitch, i'll see ya later.

Straight from the banks
where real G's won
ball in 40 below
cuz we get shit done

Cuz we got shit made.
Trill niggas on the rise,
Yeah, I too, would be afraid.

Yeah, I too would bow down
listen homie, real closely
Bosses like us, don't fuck around.

While you at parties
trying get some petty ass
Boss is ballin' over here
making large amounts of cash.

Spending large amounts of Bread
while you out feeling sorry
trying a get a bitch to spread.

Yea, i'm on another leve and never coming back down
I hang out with some others, up on top of the same bound.

Cuz I'm better than most, nah it ain't like me to lie
when I'm stacking up my paper, shooting straight for the sky
and when I do hit a star, you'll see me from afar
the candy strippin, paint rippin, in my paid with cash car.

Sportin boss as a passion
I'm flossing the high fashion
 
I ain't gotta be good at math to know that I'm making money
got the looks, personality, and jokes that are funny.
 
Quote me on that, they've got my back
Got no Cash? We're far from that.
Won't hesitate a Bitch to smack

So on your way, make no delay.
No Bitch will fuck you anyway
We're off that shit, up years ahead
you so far back, you best dead...

Goodnight it's over with that's all she wrote.

T.I. Really puts into perspective...

"and on my throne I remain, all alone in my lane
I’m as strong as they came
they were gone ‘fore they came
now I don’t wanna hang, I slap five with them rap guys
they just wanna sabotage my hustle shawty thats why"

Song continues..

HAha