Flow

Take me away

and teach me

a better day

My hands are tangled through steps of this game
my pride is broken and i'm living in shame.
My sleepless dreams only take me away
where ruby rivers flow every which way
I lay in bed but I can't get warm
In this, broken home nothing can stop the storm...

Flow through me
Angels, show me
Lovers they know
and I will soon know.

I'm a freak and I know it, but there's no where to go
Just laugh at me, cuz my life is a show.
Can't be the shadow, all over again
I roll the dice, but I just can't win.
This angel dust, won't you, give me wings
So I can, fly away to where the mountains sing.

Touch the ground for a brief period of time.

Even in the darkest of my dreams
I keep on living easy,
while I'm blocking out the screams.

I only keep it real
with the passion of the pleasure
of which you could never measure
when you look at my success
you'll see from the lord
I am blessed.

I succeed in every test.

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A sinner or a saint, I've been called it all too much
Look how far away I go so there lives I can't touch.

Yet, They find me still because I just can't get away
I could move across the globe, and they'd find me anyway.


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A fool for lesser things
has taught me lessons, it sure has
My eyes are both WIDE open
and that's when I realize.
Am I shady character?
Shit, it ain't like me to lie.
All the drugs I sell and take
are there to get me high.

The haters I blow past, so fast, they don't know
So quickly how I exit before they'd see me go.

When I work with my mind
is it then
I can stop time.
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Sixty clicks a tick for each key
is plenty of time for them to hate me.

haaaa.

You Probably Forgot.

YOU MUST READ THIS SLOW
SO EVERYONE OF YOU MOTHERFUCKERS WILL KNOW


I see you frontin and hatin right up in front of me...

You couldn't do this shit,
no better than me...

A "Homie", A "Friend"
YOU WILL NEVER BE....

I don't mean to hate or diss
But listen to this,

DO NOT MISTAKE MY KINDNESS FOR BLINDNESS, EVER.

I"M SERIOUS

YOU WANNA FUCK WITH ME???

YOUR DELIRIOUS.



Tell em I said that. =)

Today Love Won

Picture perfect day, with a picture perfect smile
I enjoy it while it lasts, obssess it for a while.
When walking on the rays of sun
Then you know that love has won.
I share it with others in hopes for return
If no return, then no stress, for they will learn.
You can't stop love with hate and denial
Because joy will win all the while.
If it's twenty below, let the depression in
Love will find it's way, and it will win.

Under all the pressure, I still chill easy

This is the season, the time of year
I haven't been that good I fear.
I've cheated, lied and caused some strife
I moved to anchorage to start a new life.
Started some vocal lessons, met some new friends
this life I live can NEVER end.
No matter how many drugs, I'm always on top
I'm always stuntin and the money won't stop.
Boss suits, connections and a name.
Every 6 months there's always a new game.
New players and a city that's the best after all
Alaska club, Red Robin, and the shopping mall.
That's just the basic, so much more to be found
Too much money that needs to be made
Hustling, I'm a slave to the trade.
Working a job, selling x on the side
pretty soon,
I'll have enough for a real sick ride.

Money ain't everything
Real talk

For all those who read this shit,
know that I'll be in the banks, soon.
Know that I will make a point of seeing you.
KNOW IT.

I won't give you the business.

A lotta bitches come up to me
and they say "Heey chase...you wanna go and kick it maybe back at your place?"
I tell em
"Fuck no, what the fuck you take me for,
I'm a gentleman. Something that you really wouldn't know"
"But Chivalry is dead! and it doesn't exist!"
"Then, that must have been the memo that I missed"

I don't think you get it do you, baby take a look around
I can catch any ho, i can get em by the pound
whether free or for money, but I ain't that desperate honey
and I guarantee you, you ain't no playboy bunny.

"Take that ass to the gym, don't make me ask again
and in three months, come back and try again."

She looked me in the eye with a real straight face
and said

"Your a real asshole, fuck you chase"

Wee!

No friends or family, I'm on my own.
Just my guitar and microphone.

Walking these roads with an idea in mind
I've got the whole wide world
to let me shine.

The grass so green
The falling snow
I love it so much
This world we know

The people I've met don't ya know
I'll never forget
There in my heart, so kind to me
I'm in there debt.

Okay

So you know I won't stop or slow.

I beat em, and heed em, with drugs I get hugs
instead to be dead it's not over my head.
Reality slips from the grip while I'm holding a fifth
what else can be said.

You know that I go with with the flow when I mow
over words it's absurd to be heard as a fake
when I bake em and take em,
I shake em like that it goes splat.

I bet if you listened you'd understand that.

Suppose as a poser as someone like me you would see
it's so great to have things handed to me.
Or tossed to me.
I just let it be.

You notice at first when the thirst
bursts right into your face
to be me a disgrace or a blessing in case
see what it's like when you're behind the mic
for a second or two, I doubt it'd be you..

Last night

Look at all this shit, it's like contraband
I'm speeding 80 in a mercedes
with a gun in my hand.

This bag of weed ain't gonna last
the cops are pulling up fast

Look at my tank it's on the E
Dammit! I forgot to get gas!

2 pipes in the glove box
and some unregistered guns
I probably should have thought ahead
and only brought one.

But it's too late to look back
I press the pedal to the floor
Looking back on my life
I probably should have done more!!

Here I sit now, with a court date in hand
and you can bet when I get out
I'll do it all over again.

Remember who wrote this? A good man.

When driving down the street
Chances are there's someone you will meet

There will be someone worse for wear
Their face scraggly, with horrid hair

They are tired, beat, belialed
Their heart week, their soul no longer riled

They've lost it all or perhaps have had enough
Things are just too hard, life is just to tough

So help them out, give them money, drink or food
You'd be surprised how fast it can change their mood

So do something for another that's grand
Give those in need a helping hand.

*Takes Hit*

Kick back,
Relax I never fear
I got a few words to exress that you just
Might wanna hear
Yeah its good to be me
Yeah it’s good to be free
I stay away from the hatred
That once lived in me
I keep a step up above,
And I ain’t stopping or slowin
Im showing people left and right
Like I know that it’s alright,
I cannot even express all the stress
That I had to deal to feel the way I wanted
Even for the next high.

Nicotine, Ecstasy
What would my momma think of me?
But I don’t even have to worry
Cuz Nothin’s botherin me.
And if im ever lost at sea
I know that for a fact
That I can get back on up track
Cause I aint ever goin back
I’ll tackle the ocean and I ride them waves
My lifes a servent, bitch, that I treat as a slave.
yes I will misbehave
cuz I only have one chance, before I fall in my grave.




Cuz I’m a real hope and I’m real reason
I would rather live in misery or hang
Myself for treason
If I ever disrespect, if I choose not to accept
Who I am and what I stand for in this world
That will reject.
All the dreamers and believers
And the people doing good
For your families and lovers
Even though you know you would.
I don’t think that most out there are
Even believing ,
Cuz what’s I’m seein are the lazy
And the ones there deceiving.

But now I’ll leave it up to you,
And now I’m paraphrasing
Let me get back to my life
And how I find it so amazing.
When I’m dazing
And im raising up my spirit
Like im blazing
Through these lyrics you
Will hear it
Like a ghost you shouldn’t fear it
So turn this on to your start your day
Get inspired, find your way
Live your life, make no delay,
pay attention to just what I say
cuz ive been through this all before
made every mistake and more
yet here I am still standing strong
cause now I know what’s right from wrong.

Till Next Time.

Michael Buble



Home.

Hey you.

Nut up or shut up Chase.


Nut up or shut up.

I don't/want it back.

Im just a scardy cat to run away from fairbanks to anchorage
to run away from my problems and pain but i'm going insane
I can't be rhyming right now, I miss so many people
i've burned so many bridges
why do am I writing on this shit
I should not be on drugs, that shits bad. WOOO.

Im so self concious i'll lay it on the table
My esteem is like a penny worth a cent.
Here i am not making any sense.
So tough on myself, I hope when I have kids I don't make they don't turn out like me.
What is the purpose of life, oh my. If people would see this blog I wouldn't know what they would think, So I wouldn't even guess.
How honest to I have to be, cuz I write this out for me to read
but I still lie to myself cuz I'm afraid. But why am I afraid
all this emotion comes out so fast, I'm not even slowing down
typing, My mind is running a million miles an hour
DO i wanna search for the fame, or is the fame a prison
that secretly looks tempting to the broke and little.
Is love on the inside?
What am I talking about?
SHould I post this?
What if someone reads this?
hahahaaaa

ohh the joys.
Oh the joys.

Oh the ups and downs.

I analyze waaay to much,
But im not taking a step back and looking at the joy just yet
because these drugs are here to make me feel.
They don't help me see.

I'm going to church tomorrow.

I'm way to weak.

I failed math and shouldn';t have graduated highschool
hahaha.

Math isn't everything though in life, but damn if I was good at that
I could put the peices of my life together like an equation.

Oooiaheroihaseokhfslfn

Hours

In a world full of violence.

Humans murdering Humans. (War or entertainment)
Men raping women. (for porn or it happens in real life)
Humans committing suicide. (for entertainment on movies
or someone you might know)



In a world full of pain.

Heartache from a loved one. (cheating, broken up with)
Death from a lover (accidental, suicidal)
Torture of fugitives held captive
(on movies for entertainment or anywhere in the world)



The difference here is one
is for entertainment on Movies, and T.V.

The other happens in real life. (Humans with feelings who aren't getting paid to do this.)

Why should I be watching movies when
I live in a world where it happens anyways?
What's the difference between CNN and the movies shown at theaters?
There is none.

Ughhh, I spend hours a week trying to make sense of this.

Leisadsa

hippity hoppoty hooo haaa.

Eshlish ans fialks.

butalks asoijnene

os eksaed aeofksnsw


bupsoi elakjnsu

dkkiusehhsa


sefdaiuue.

You (Me)

Invisible to the naked eye
but seen when you use your imagination.

seen as your friend,
with a personality of no other.

An intriguing individual
who has the looks and personality.
Not one or the other.

Flipside

Seen as unstable who crawls under the skin
with a humor so twisted beyond reason.
Can't tell if he's joking
or serious as ever.
So black and white in his ways
he is stuck.

Staying strong pt 2

Lets just take a minute and open our eyes
see corruption and the hate,
and the realize,
it's not fun
it sucks
and thats not joke
I'm working 2 jobs
and I'm still broke.
now don't come up to me telling me as well
cuz when I look at my life, I'm living in hell
I could rap for pennies, or food any day
But i'm working 8-5 cuz i got bills to pay
I've got the desire to live my life stress free
but it's not the life God choose for me.
Living in a world that's full of sin
I just can't compete with the competition.
Who I wanna be and what I wanna do
will not run congruent with you.
From the depths of hell, I have no choice
but to yell so loud, you'll hear my voice!

I wanna tell you a story...

Verse
I wanna tell you a story
but you always walk away from me...

when will you realize
and see the beauty within your own eyes....

How many times must I explain
your the reason for both our pain..

Too busy blinded by your hate
the pride you carry is too much weight.

Pre Chorus
All you need is too look inside
and save that person you let die


Chorus:
everything that we are
you've wasted away
So keep up that lie
cause one day you will pay

verse:
in yourself you don't believe
there's nothing left for you and me

now you've become a memory
I've given up to let you be

cause you're not worth my time
you've crossed too far over the line

come back again, I won't be here
my back is turned away from you my dear

(Pre Chorus)
Chorus
Solo
Chorus

everything we are
you've wasted away
So keep up that lie
cause one day you will pay

Outro:
So keep up that lie that you've created
cause me and you are so outdated

Explicitly Exciting.

Gary Gary pop her Cherry
How does everybody know?
perky boobs and cocks to show
with all their asses lined in a row.

Oh no.

Here I go

too much writings got me on edge
I'm leaning far over this ledge.

By a string, wire, or a line of coke
These highs I get help me to cope.
Stress, anxiety, or a stomach pain
Just cannot do when I am sane.

Listen to me, Listen close.
Listen to the lies at most.
Truth be told, will never happen
death do us part is just to gross.

When feeling good is in demand
through a shot or from my hand
Pleasure is my only give
when in reality,
I just can't live.

Friends and love I set aside
to have a thrill
a joyous ride.
I look for friends and love again
they're too far gone, in the end.

This will happen every time
when will I learn?
Maybe next time.
I can't keep putting life aside
because usage will not let me hide.

If I ever die alone
My life will not be truly known.
I want everyone to see
You can have fun on ecstasy.

Classic rock song. (1)

Do you wanna liiive
Do you know whats right?
Do you wanna seee
then listen closely

Ya just can't make it, cuz you'll never know how
that's what they told me long ago, look where I'm at now.
You wanna play with fire and see the light
come down below with me, lets share the sight.



Can you hear meeee
Do you truely understand
Can you set it all aside?
Take my hand, join the ride.

Pleasure is the game and considered a sin
but the passion behind it is where you can win
Rockin up a hell, with a storm of fire
they fed the devil inside
and freed my one desire.

Please God

Let me go all in alone
to take on a world I've never known..
I've never had anyone close
because I hurt
Then Sure enough,
someone gets close
it doesn't work
and then they're hurt.
I hurt them.
Why do I hurt them?

Because I hurt?

Who's to blame?
It's a such a shame
when my own heart
cannot be tamed.

This is my time to show the world.
I need the strength let me be heard.
Please help me God if your out there
and show me that you truly care.

Everyone will hate and a few of them love.
Everything good comes from above.

Slow Motion

Will I ever know that it really does end
how long can I leave myself open?
How many tears have I held back
when too much pride keeps me off track?

All these questions shoot to my brain
when glitter flows right through my veins.
Reality slips when I come down,
happiness starts underneath this frown.

When it kills me from the inside out
is now the time to yell and shout?
To be so quiet drives me to peace
but the anger and hatred will not decrease.

I take a look over these walls
where oblivion lurks and quietly crawls.
I dare not enter when I'm so high
these tears of joy are meant to cry.

All I need is to look inside
and find my real pleasure ride.
Besides Sex, Drugs or rock n roll,
Can all my friends just be my foes?

Blah Blah Blah

Tell it to my face,
everything you desire.
lemme know your rage,
I wanna feel your fire.

Don't try to refrain
tell it from the start.
Expose it as the truth
straight from your heart.

Who could tell it better
you experienced it all.
something I couldn't handle
it was you who stood tall.

I might not have known
where my heart ever was.
But your head was on straight
and you knew better,
just because.

Just because, or maybe so,
either way, love will die
and in one way, it will grow.

Clever words "will play" so to speak
like a game of verbal jousting
it's all just tongue and cheek.

Goodness me,
writing is what I always do
But I've got so emotions
to try and explain
that blogs will never do.

iLive iLaugh iLove

Listen to the love
Quiet all the hate.
Spread all of the peace
try and fit it in glove.
Let it overflow
fall onto the ground
then let's watch it grow.

Just a dream?

Who's the only one to make me fall to my knees?

Only you girl,
I can only say please.
On my hands and knees
I will beg in bitter sorrow.
I'm still in the past,
You're looking toward
Tomorrow.


I've lost what meant most
too selfish to see.
The only thing beautiful
has now slipped from me.


You would give a hundred
and I would give fifty.
My hands in the air
I admit that I'm guilty.

I always thought
that it was just about me.
The love you had,
I choose not to see.
I had so many chances,
that most would call luck.
But it ran dry and my boat sunk.

There you are locked,
I've reaped what I've sowed.
The combination to your heart
I'll never have the code.


Give me one more chance
So I Can make things right.
I hated when we argued
It started a big fight
Never mattered who was wrong
Never mattered who was right
Alright, I was wrong
I admit, so I im alone once again
Cuz I always seemed to loose
And you always seemed to win.
But I was too blind
Lets rewind
The past,
And bring it all back.
you will see along the way
That I just lost track.
slipped and fell
Practically broke my back
And in the end,
I lost you because of that.
But that's no excuse,
Maybe years later
You can be one to forgive
But it's something I regret
everything that I did
Well I'm a bad guy
Thats 10 reasons why
Now Im about to cry
Or maybe something more
Let me spare the details
And accept were no more.

A Day

A happy day
A day that everyone will say
"I hope your doing good today."
"Doing awesome, might I say."
"Why so awesome, why not okay?"
"If okay was the theme today
then It wouldn't be an awesome day."

So say your day was just okay
and not awesome in any way,
then is your okay day
filling up space on an awesome day?

Oh things you say
about an awesome day
makes my heart skip beats
okay.

So when I say
an awesome day
is only okay
if okay isn't filling space
in today
then we all may
have a wonderful day

on joyous glorious holiday!!!

I hold myself in contempt.

I live in your subconscious
and no matter how far away I go
or how many times you fall "in love",
I'll lay dormant in your thoughts and feelings.
Bury me as deep down as you can
and enjoy my departure.
I will be back.

Your friends support you 100%,
I'd understand why.

Some hate me so,
and that I know.

I see your friends throw out opinions about us
what we were,
what all happened.
They don't know shit.

They still don't know me,
They might know you.

but

They don't know us.
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As for that other fuckers out there
let them walk up to me and tell me how they feel.
Let him them tell me how I can make
someones world crumble
build it back up higher and tear it down
so it falls faster and longer.

I'd dare ANYONE to try and come up to
tell me some shit, that I don't already know.

LET THEM ALL FUCK ME UP.



But then I sit and think...

I've burned bridges, lost trust,
I've lost friends.
I've fucked myself over.
Anyone who tried to make my life miserable
would have no choice
but to turn around and walk back to there life
full of friends and contentment..

I'll spit in all of your faces...

Bitches.
----------------------------------------------------------------

I don't deserve love,
EVERYONE hate me, because
I'm a closed cold minded FUCK.
I just can't seem to realize

That I am Me. Who is me?

I'd feel sad for someone like me.
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I want your pity
I want your hate
I want your greed and envy.

Or, if you don't have any of that,

Then show me your love.

I want your caring and loving feelings
that you carry so heavily on your shoulders.

If that's still not suitable,

Give me your indifference.

I want it so much,
I'd give up my own kids for it.
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I hope your tired of reading this same shit.
I love every fucking line of it.

This is real.
This is it.

Love your best friends
Your best friends Love you.

But as you know, Just like I know
There's only one true love.

Yet,
My heart isn't frozen
as I thought it was.

It's in a constant burning state.

I change,
but my heart
remains the same.

It keeps loving, it keeps hating.
It builds and destroys.


I feel I have very little control of it.
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I'm A Fucking Giant,
I'll keep growing till
My lungs collapse
and I end up hospitalized
on life support.

Yet, No one will cut me from it.
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Quite sometime from now..


When it's quiet...

I'll strike so fast....
like lightning bolts from the ground.


It will strike ten fold.
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Then once more,
I'll rise up again
and end up in your life.

I guess it's time for you to hate me again.

Chase is unstable
all cards on the table

so

Hate me, Hate me, will you please?
Hate me, Hate me, I'm on my knees.

Hate and Hate just like you should
because loving me, is just no good.

I love the hate, and hate the love
but what would god think up above?

Oh he'll judge when the time does come
and when he's done
I'll be first in line
and he will not forgive this time.

What have I done to deserve this pain?
I'm such a loser, it's such a shame.

I'm rich and normal
I'm becoming insane.

With all of this,
You don't know it

I wrote this blog
and didn't say shit.

You

Girl,

Sing your song.
I love it when you prove
us wrong

To the beat you'll dance.
Leaving everyone in the dust
who'll never get a chance.

The world you'll win.
Since in perfection
it's impossible for
you to sin.

Show everyone you care.
To be a bitch
you wouldn't dare.

The strength you show us,
Leave us all in envy,
and some being jealous.


While that is jest
I'm still not impressed.

So Kill yourself,
before suicide is committed.


? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

Together

My tears stay hidden
all sadness is ridden.
A few who are closer
see my true composure.
Underneath all the acting
laughing and jokes,
I'm strangling myself
but can't even choke.

Who is the impostor?
Can it be me?

Who is the liar?
Lets all wait and see.

Don't be so hasty
and jump to conclusions.

It's all relative
and filled with illusions.

What I think is real,
most will think fake.

Join in the laughter
but I won't partake.


No one is above

No one is below.



We are together

and

together we grow.

hE hE Haa

I met a nice girl who's nice and hot

she doesn't like me,

I'm like "why not"!

"Your too crEEPY and weird, you sEE".

"Oh golly gEe! What's nEW!
Is it my looks and personalITY?"

Who knEW?!

"Yes it is!, your estEEm is s-ILY
you have no friends,
and nowhere to go!"

"GoLLY, seE all these people
put on a show in front of Me!"

"You didn't know? Your a fool!"

"No I didn't know! I'm obliVious"

"It's obVious!"

hE He HE he He

what I would give

to live

judgment free.



tHAnKs fOr lISteNinG

oops, i mean

REadING

:D

I wanna fight,

Buut, I'd fall to my knees
and let you punch me.
Nose broken and bloody
so everyone can see
how angry and hurt
you are from me.

Lets not forget the knife
and each finger you'd slice
I wouldn't flinch or think twice,
you'd have every right,
since I haven't been nice.

Strip me naked and pull out the whip
lash out on my skin,
Give me one hell of a trip.
I won't fuss or argue,
since your probably not through.

Let me hand you the shovel
so my face you could smash.
As long as you're happy
and having a blast.

Hang me naked from a pole
so everyone can see
this freak has no soul.

Because.....

Suicide would be Shellfish.

Who's the best?

Since I'm the shit
Imma rub it in your face
and make you eat all of it.

You little bitch
you think your better than the rest?
it isn't possible,
since I'm the best.

You're a fake, face the fact
they love me, you know that.

So many people,
think I'm the greatest.
Oh, I'm too vain?

Look at your bitch ass girl
it's insane.

You're an adult
and she's STILL in school.
Sad part is,
She's more MATURE than you

You think you're still cool?

How many slave girls
can cover for you?

TOO MANY.

MOST UNDER 18.

The ones that are over that age
ACT LIKE THEY'RE SIXTEEN.

and are ONLY GOOD FOR FUCKING.

Fuck it,

I ain't got nothin else to say.

This ain't a poem or a blog,
It's a joke,
like your life.

Suppose

If Moses supposes his toes smell of roses
suppose his nose knows the rose from his toes?
Who goes and woes all the wonders of words
it's absurd to suppose the nose of Moses knows
differently from the rose to his toes.

If sender and lender is slender,
then Bogs and Logs is Blogs.

End of story.

Son

Shit son,
keep your job son,
don't quit son,
don't pursue your dreams son,
you can't make it son,
you want money son,
don't be like your sister son,
live in comfort son,
I have a lot to give you son,
just be smart son,
don't be naive son,
life is hard son,
oh cmon son,
don't you see all that I have son,
it's more than what your mom has son,
you want a lot of things son,
don't you son,
you failed all your grades in school son,
don't go to college son,
it costs money son,
you can't afford it son,
I never had rich parents son,
when I was a boy son,
if you leave son,
I won't support you son,
you wouldn't want that son,
would you son?

-Dad

(I'm thankful I have a dad
some don't.)

Here's a blog that isn't a poem..

NOPE JUST KIDDING, I'M LYING AND SHIT

I WROTE A FUCKING BLOG BUT DELETED IT.

SO HERE I AM WRITING ANOTHER RHYME

BECAUSE I HAVE NO LIFE AND PLENTY OF TIME.

SHIT, WHY AM I WRITING IN CAPS

WHILE WATCHING PORN, CRAP CRAP CRAP

ALL I DO IS *FAP FAP FAP*

THAT MEANS I'M JERKING OFF

FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW

I GET OFF TO WOMEN NAKED IN THE SNOW.

OH NO, HERE I GO NOT MAKING ANY SENSE

BUT A PENNY FOR MY THOUGHT

JUST WOULDN'T MAKE CENTS.

I'D RATHER BE IN A DITCH AND ROT

THEN HAVE YOU FIGURE ME OUT,

SO STOP.

END.

FIN.

*BANG*

Sea!

I like to make rhymes
and if this wasn't said it'd be a waste.
I could throw punches,
but,
I like your face.
What?

"Where the fuck are you going with this?".

Who the fuck cares

Your face is so ugly everyone stares.
Deep down inside I'm sure that your pretty
beautiful, smart, talented and witty.

Till that comes out you're just shitty
So low and filthy people hate that you're alive.
They'll be your friend talk to you and jive,

but if I was me, which I am,
then you can see that I wouldn't waste 5.
Minutes to hours to days to months to years
that's the story of your life and no one cares.

Except for me, since I have me, you see
this poem is really about me reflecting off me.
I can lift me up and bring me down
See, my life is on me, I'm responsible for me.

OMG, SEE! SEE? SEE!?

WoOoOoOO!

Eenie meenie miny moe,
All you muther fuckers know
I'm a big weenie SO
eenie meenie mine oh no,
Where did all my balls just go?
All my balls just go?

What the fuck?

Don't you know, that I just go
right with the flow so let me go
and reap all of my shit I sow.

Slap a bitch
smack a ho
shit I'd do more
bend her over
till she can touch a toe
fuck her in the butt
since she's a slut,

Oh god damn, this rhythmical
structure is not correct,
and every rhyme I spew,
I love it so much
my penis will just stand erect.
I wouldn't give 2 squirts of piss
so don't read it.
because It's shit.

this shit's so gay

It'll make a homo leave
and not wanna stay.
which is okay,
who the fuck is reading this anyway?

blah blah blah is all I say
and make it rhyme which is okay.

Not it's not, it's third grade junk
like all the shit inside my trunk.

Truth truth truth,

It's all just tongue and cheek.

Truth truth truth
It's what I'll never speak.

With every artist comes a image he portrays and a picture that he paints.

If I could only learn to take,
my anger and my hate.
Control my mental state
settle down and just set it straight.
Maybe I could learn to take
a second to pump my brakes
before I say it, regret it later
and let it escalate.

But by then it's just too late.

There's only so much I can take
so much I can swallow and tolerate.
Till the point where I just break
snaps, and that's all it takes

Hopefully by then I would have
learned from all of my mistakes.

Untitled

Only so many times I can be patient.
Only so many times I can be a nice a guy.

Only so many times I can joke about when
I choke a slut and cut open her throat.
What do I gotta do to get through to you
to show you that I don't give a fuck
if you, suck a dick, gag and choke.

Doctor, I'm sick.

Prescribe me the medication
because this temptation of
self mutilation is taking it's toll.
Shit, I don't even know
am I the only fucking person
who's normal anymore?

Ily

If I had besties who Ily'd me
I'd post problems every ten minutes.
So I could get support, but I don't.
Strictly because I have humility
who'd wanna bear my problems
when I don't wanna bear my own?
Every thing in my life is reaped
from shit that I've sown.

That isn't the case.

When I have a desire, it's like a fire.
I cannot quit, even if it takes years to get.
You can laugh and tease
get me on my hands and knees
and I will still fight.
My load is not light.
This world is not right.
Everyone can go with the flow
and think it's alright.

Fuck that,

Working eight to five
trying to deal with shit.
Sometimes I wanna throw in the towel
and just quit and sit,
waiting for an opportunity
to come find me.
But if it was that easy, then see
I would be a rocker with my name in lights
and every fucking song I wrote
would have copy rights.
But that isn't case,
I walk through the streets
with no one knowing my face.
Until all you muther fuckers
will know my name is......

I agree.

Happiness doesn't exist
it lays in the bottom of the ocean
with fish.
Fuck this,
Create happiness on your own
plant the seeds and let it be grown.
Do what you want, head up in the sky
don't answer questions
"What?" "How?" or "Why?"
In fact, raise the middle finger
high up in the air.
Show these muther fuckers
that you just don't care.
Anywhere you live
Anything you do
Who can stop you?

Fuck You

Wanna call me a menace? A cold hearted dick?
I love pissin you off, won't even take a pick
when they consider me an ass or a prick.
I'll take both, and more,
lemme finish it off, i'm a hated, intricate,
haughty, spiteful little bitch for a boy.
Being so bi polar with hate and joy,
Lemme just lay out on the couch and jerk off
to the fact that i'm crazy as fuck.
so anyone who has a problem, then my dick they can suck,
you can call me up, come on over and let me know
something that I already know. Or something I don't,
I always love the news, like the choice to choose
from the ammonia the bleach and the razor at reach.
So watch me cut then spill the bleach on the wound
and wonder around alone in my room.
Hang myself by the noose and let the chair fall loose.
What a great plan for a man to do, a fucked up kid
with a fucked up life, with a fucked up dad and his
fucked up wife.
The sickness that holds me, it won't let me go
I'm no longer free, a puppet in it's show.
This depression is a demon that runs through my soul
it infests my mind leaving me nowhere to go.

Guesss who

Quit all your talking and bull it's a bore.
I'm starting some shit and you don't know what for?
Well that's just great, your lying all over the place
and your plate?, it's getting empty from the bullshit you state.
Your a fighter? A genuine man and a scholar?
I will ring you by the neck and hang you by the collar
Is this about you? You better believe it
Do I wanna start beef? naah, I should just quit it.

But I won't,
My numbers in your cell, gimme a call
we can set a place and a date to brawl.
I'm free for all.
I don't give a damn what you do
Every name under the sun can't describe
all the bullshit about you.
We all know the names of the coward and fake
I've been quiet too long for this to be a mistake.
Your appearance and personality is so fucking silly
It makes wanna punch your lights out, permanently.
How conceited are you to think it's about you
you think your confidence is rock solid and true?
I see on your pedestal you standin up high and tall
see me at the bottom tearing it down to watch you fall.
I could keep going but you've got my point so I won't
though, your head is so full of shit you probably don't.
My fuse has been lit, it's quickly dying down
and when it blows up, you won't be around.
A lotta threats is what i've been spittin
but not as many lies that you've been shittin.
Are you for real? Is it true you conceal and deal
the rawest shit ever and no one fucks with you?
Don't ever in your life try and come off as someone
you're not, I raise the middle finger and pop
the bullets, and watch you get shot.......

I'd yank my teeth before I'd ever bite my tounge.

You can blog everyday all night for a week
it won't find you happiness in which you seek.
Move to Texas, and meet new friends
but deep in your mind it never ends

But these letters get brisker as I keep on writing
I'm sick of your blogs, their not so exciting.
In fact rather boring, I hate to admit
no matter how many I read, I wont give a shit.

I can't even read them, since I'd like to move on
every person I know, updates me with what's wrong
"Oh she's going through this" "and her new pill is this"
I feel like I know every time you go piss.

You wanna call it love, or were we having sex?
but what does it matter, since now I'm your ex.

Have I came back to you yet? are you waiting for the call?
Because you were so sure of it in your blog as I recall.

Speaking of Blogs

"Remember this?"
I read all the texts I wrote you, thanks for sharing.
It showed that I was sweet and that I was caring.

You say I'm a pusher, someone who pushed you around?

If I pushed you to loose it, then lets call it rape.
If I pushed you to love me, there is no escape.

Bitch,
I raised you high in the air
and watched you fall to the ground

If it's best that I'm not in your life, then I'm glad we broke up
lets just say, you in my life was just a hiccup.
It clearly meant nothing, I had no feelings at all
I only held you down to where you couldn't stand tall.

I manipulated, deceived, lied and hurt you deep?

oh wait,

Lets think of the other boys that you couldn't keep.
They had feelings, and I'm sure it was tough
yet you called it off, because you had enough.

I'm not sorry for anything I've done,
I'd do it all over again
and then some.