I hold myself in contempt.

I live in your subconscious
and no matter how far away I go
or how many times you fall "in love",
I'll lay dormant in your thoughts and feelings.
Bury me as deep down as you can
and enjoy my departure.
I will be back.

Your friends support you 100%,
I'd understand why.

Some hate me so,
and that I know.

I see your friends throw out opinions about us
what we were,
what all happened.
They don't know shit.

They still don't know me,
They might know you.

but

They don't know us.
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As for that other fuckers out there
let them walk up to me and tell me how they feel.
Let him them tell me how I can make
someones world crumble
build it back up higher and tear it down
so it falls faster and longer.

I'd dare ANYONE to try and come up to
tell me some shit, that I don't already know.

LET THEM ALL FUCK ME UP.



But then I sit and think...

I've burned bridges, lost trust,
I've lost friends.
I've fucked myself over.
Anyone who tried to make my life miserable
would have no choice
but to turn around and walk back to there life
full of friends and contentment..

I'll spit in all of your faces...

Bitches.
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I don't deserve love,
EVERYONE hate me, because
I'm a closed cold minded FUCK.
I just can't seem to realize

That I am Me. Who is me?

I'd feel sad for someone like me.
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I want your pity
I want your hate
I want your greed and envy.

Or, if you don't have any of that,

Then show me your love.

I want your caring and loving feelings
that you carry so heavily on your shoulders.

If that's still not suitable,

Give me your indifference.

I want it so much,
I'd give up my own kids for it.
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I hope your tired of reading this same shit.
I love every fucking line of it.

This is real.
This is it.

Love your best friends
Your best friends Love you.

But as you know, Just like I know
There's only one true love.

Yet,
My heart isn't frozen
as I thought it was.

It's in a constant burning state.

I change,
but my heart
remains the same.

It keeps loving, it keeps hating.
It builds and destroys.


I feel I have very little control of it.
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I'm A Fucking Giant,
I'll keep growing till
My lungs collapse
and I end up hospitalized
on life support.

Yet, No one will cut me from it.
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Quite sometime from now..


When it's quiet...

I'll strike so fast....
like lightning bolts from the ground.


It will strike ten fold.
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Then once more,
I'll rise up again
and end up in your life.