I

I don't know what I'm pursuing
stumped, like a chump
is how i'm living.
what i'm doing
where i'm at.
All I know for sure
is that I'm looking forward
never turning back,
never loosing hope,
but then I choke
cuz I cannot cope
with the fact
that my own shit is wack
people doubting me
Always looking back
But like a joke They laugh
I laugh too
twice as much
because I knew
while I struggle
and juggle these burdens
through and through
dont take my shoes
you cannot afford this god forsaken life I choose!

Go Home! Give up!
is what they all want me just to do
But I keep on spitting and shitting
Like I got nothing to loose
they say that some won't make it
So it was my choice to choose
rolled my dice, not afraid
got down on one knee and prayed
cuz my demons aren't letting up
my past keeps on catching up
life just won't let me catch up
and rise above what matters most
so here's a toast, I'm out breath
and almost certain that my death
won't come in time
cuz life is not at all that kind
let me rewind.

For heavens sake I still shake
Like an earthquake
How long will it take
Cuz my own life's at stake.
Sometimes my own rhyme
Takes too much time
So I stick this finger up
and suck it up
Like there's just no better time
For my own stars to align.

And if I ever find my destiny
Inside of me, well hopefully
It'll set me free so I can be
Who I wanna be
But who that is I just can't see.
Seems like insecurity won't go away
But not today,
because that's the price
I have to pay,
for today and tomorrow
And the rest.
I will continue growing strong
And be my very best, not impressed?
Let me guess
And when I come back with the answer
You will know that it's success
And the fact I'm blessed.
Unless
This fucking demons toying in my head
Shit I thought I had that riddin
Who I'm kiddin?
It was hidden.
I'm bed ridden.
Like my dreams and desires getting higher
Like this temperature
I feel like I'm burnin on fire.